malcolmsloan

So yesterday I received my yearly evaluation. It is an understatement to say that last year was horrible for me- totally hungover every day, marriage trouble. However, on my "yearly assessment of performance" I was given the highest rank. WTF? I don't even remember working last year. I almost wanted it to be poor (not to the extent of losing my job, of course). I felt like I was performing poorly, and was totally ready to own it. Kind of confused about how to feel about this, but I'm not going to over think it. Just wanted to post it to get it out and see what you guys think.

resolute50

Just think where you would be if you were sober last year.

Nonsensical

Of all the measures of work performance available to me to rate the people I supervise, the annual evaluation is the worst. There are 80 people working here and we all "exceed expectations". Every one of us. The system is broken.

resolute50

Here it's more of a "cost of living" raise instead of a performance raise.
It never really equals how much the cost to live here increases.

Coming up on 23 years of working here and I make double what I did when I started.
It's not just a drop in the bucket.
But,I still cringe when the bills arrive. Energy cost.

EndGameNYC

Take your evaluation to heart in the same way you would have had you been graded poorly. What's important is how you were evaluated today...not in the past, not how you might have been evaluated or how you think you should have been evaluated.

Now you know where you stand. Now you have something to lose. Your choice is to maintain your status or lose it. Perhaps you can use this as motivation to exceed your supervisor's already lofty expectations?

LBrain

Made me think of the movie "Office Space."

CodeJob

Maybe you work the "scare floor" in Monsters Inc.?

aasharon90

That is one of those "gifts or promises"
we receive in recovery when living a
sober or clean life. Awesome..!!!

Tiptree

Do you work for the government? If yes, that explains it (soon to be former public servant)

Ruby2

Look at it as a gift. I have evaluations. We have to rate ourselves and then turn it in to our supervisors. Am I really going to say I was a horrible employee?

Hopefully you get a raise with that. All we get lately are handshakes. Current non-union public servant - no pay increases for any of us in over 5 years, but who's counting?

Venecia

Hey Malcolm -- I got sober almost exactly 6 months after starting a new job. Concern that I couldn't perform well at a new job was one of many reasons for me to embark upon recovery (as though there are reasons to stay in alcoholism...). My review was a couple months ago and although I went in practically with knees shaking, I got a positive review.

Try to avoid overthinking it. I suspect it means you are very good at your work, despite difficult challenges. Be glad for the good rating, knowing it is one less thing to worry about as you continue your recovery and that *you* will know your performance is even better now that you're free of the chains of addiction. That's what I'm doing. I know I'm a better employee now and can more genuinely enjoy my work.

Take care.

malcolmsloan

Thanks for the responses,guys. We have to undergo these evaluations every year. In a way I do work foe Monsters University. We are evaluated by a committee, who look at our peer observation (we are observed and critiqued while working), the evaluations of those I am in charge of, and the amount and quality of our professional development we have completed. As I said last year was rough. However, this last summer-while sober-I attended a 3 day workshop. In the past, I did not do things like workshops. Perhaps that is what moved me into this category. But I'm fine, and I'm moving on. Just struck me in a weird way.
-thanks again!