Stopped on January 3rd
Stopped on January 3rd
I'd had enough of boozing. So I had a program. SR.
For the first month I was addicted to New Posts. I learned loads from people like me. No axe to grind, no agenda, just genuine souls fighting for their lives. I felt humbled. Someone somewhere spent the time to teach me the skills I so desperately needed.
What did I do as a drunk?. Did I ever throw a lifeline to a man in Oregon?.
No I did not. Instead I drank to blackout every day, alone.
These three months have be up and down. I stood my ground though. This is my life, and want more, I need more.......than a bottle and a head full of lies.
For the first month I was addicted to New Posts. I learned loads from people like me. No axe to grind, no agenda, just genuine souls fighting for their lives. I felt humbled. Someone somewhere spent the time to teach me the skills I so desperately needed.
What did I do as a drunk?. Did I ever throw a lifeline to a man in Oregon?.
No I did not. Instead I drank to blackout every day, alone.
These three months have be up and down. I stood my ground though. This is my life, and want more, I need more.......than a bottle and a head full of lies.
I worked till two today, big Charity drive. I was not hungover needing a drink.
My body didn't stink trying desperately to expel toxins.
Got home, tired, had to assert myself at work, calmly,. A friend came round for dinner. So went out to buy food and collect a package from Fat Face.
My mate had been drinking earlier, lunch time. We bitched about the sap at work, generally swanned about town being a bit stylish.
On none of these things did I drink. I thought about it. My ex seducer - The Slug - is never far away.
We walked through the Park coming home, laden, well after 5PM. On a beautiful Spring day. We passed a couple on a bench, a man and woman, drunk, drinking openly. And I said out loud, 'there but for the grace of G-D go I'. And Andy said Yes.
It's been one of those days. But Friends, if you told me six months ago........
My body didn't stink trying desperately to expel toxins.
Got home, tired, had to assert myself at work, calmly,. A friend came round for dinner. So went out to buy food and collect a package from Fat Face.
My mate had been drinking earlier, lunch time. We bitched about the sap at work, generally swanned about town being a bit stylish.
On none of these things did I drink. I thought about it. My ex seducer - The Slug - is never far away.
We walked through the Park coming home, laden, well after 5PM. On a beautiful Spring day. We passed a couple on a bench, a man and woman, drunk, drinking openly. And I said out loud, 'there but for the grace of G-D go I'. And Andy said Yes.
It's been one of those days. But Friends, if you told me six months ago........
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