Mrrryah1

About a year and a half ago I had a domestic “incident” with my current partner. To be honest, it was a result of my drunkenness. The poor guy (normie – not an alcoholic) had been dealing with me being off the wagon for months by this time. He would stay sober and sit by and watch me drink myself into oblivion on a daily basis. So, I was wasted one evening, he snapped for basically no reason, and basically destroyed our apartment and we got into a physical fight and of course, the police charged him with assault, for pushing me. So the court date for this is coming up on Monday, and this afternoon I had to go watch the (1.5 hour long) video statement that I gave, while highly intoxicated, the evening of the incident. I’ve been so worked up and terrified about what might be on this video tape - this statement I gave while in a blackout – and what it would be like to see myself in that mind state… (I’ve never actually seen myself wasted while sober – I doubt many of us have). Anyways. I was terrified for nothing – because my statement ended up not being bad or inaccurate. Better yet, I had the opportunity to get honest with the crown about my problems with drinking/drugging and the state of my life when the incident occurred – what was really going on – why my partner might have snapped the way he did – etc. etc. I cried, I got emotional, but I was honest and real and I feel SO much better. It sounds like everything is going to get thrown out before it even goes to trial, based on my honesty today and explanations. It was really scary to make those admissions to the crown, it wasn’t easy – but I feel like it was a real stepping stone in my recovery. So right now I’m relieved and happy and excited and thanking my higher power for guiding me through this situation. It feels great to be sober today  Wish everyone another 24.

Anna

Good for you for facing the mess you made and dealing with it. That's hard to do, and I agree that it's a big step towards your recovery.

Mrrryah1

I will continue being honest. Not even 1 hour after making this post, my brain is telling me that I should celebrate by getting a bottle of wine tonight. It's Friday, my partner is out of town, and I deserve it. WTF?!?!!? Stupid alcoholic brain! Wish I could throw it in the garbage sometimes....

SoberLeigh

Happy to hear that the court case scenario will soon be behind you.

Stat strong, mrrryah; you can beat this thing. If you need help quieting the demonic AV, post away.

Aarryckha

Mrrryah, that took a lot of courage, in my opinion, to own up to the truth.

And congrats on recognizing your AV trying to tempt you. Definitely a step in the right direction!

HeadLump

Stay strong, Mrrryah The way is clear for a new and honest life. Let this be the beginning of something magical xx

Dee74

I'm glad you faced that myrrah. Hope all turns out for the best

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LBrain

Well done Mrrryah. Owning up to yourself is HUGE!!!!! You are well on your way to a better you. Thanks for sharing.

I'll add something about myself here. More than once I recall saying to people, "No I didn't. Did I really do that?" Scary not remembering things.

Good luck.

least

I'm glad you got that sorted. I hope things continue to go well for you.

Mrrryah1

Thanks guys!!! Got a call after everything that all charges have been dropped by the crown!!! Thank god, time to move forward!!