An Awakening
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An Awakening
It has been a long while since I posted, but I'm usually on SR everyday reading. I've drank here and there since the first of the year, but it is becoming fewer and farther between. I think I've been ever so slowly building up to the permanent stop. What, you say, has brought about this change? It is the fact that I can no longer live in denial. I can no longer lie to myself. I am an alcoholic.
If I drink, I have withdrawls - minimal withdrawls, yes (night sweats) - but there is no denying what that really means. It means my body has become addicted and if I continue to drink, it will only get worse. Never better. N.E.V.E.R.
Having had longer periods of sobriety now with only one or two drinks here and there I've realized how great I feel without it. I am in control. I no longer have to worry that I will have self-induced health problems. I am happy. I am, well, me. It is amazing it has taken me so long to have this awakening, to remove the blinders. Though I'm so glad it has happened. Denial is such a harmful thing...
If I drink, I have withdrawls - minimal withdrawls, yes (night sweats) - but there is no denying what that really means. It means my body has become addicted and if I continue to drink, it will only get worse. Never better. N.E.V.E.R.
Having had longer periods of sobriety now with only one or two drinks here and there I've realized how great I feel without it. I am in control. I no longer have to worry that I will have self-induced health problems. I am happy. I am, well, me. It is amazing it has taken me so long to have this awakening, to remove the blinders. Though I'm so glad it has happened. Denial is such a harmful thing...
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Be careful. At one point I could have said the exact same thing. Thought I was OK because I could go for several days without a drink. It was a gradual progression where I lost more and more control and then at one point I switched to Vodka from beer because beer was too filling and I had to drink to much of it to work. It was like jumping off a cliff. I had black outs for periods of days which I have no clue what was going on. I remember losing complete track of day time vs night, lost a car for 3 months before the police found where I left it.
After being sober for a while I realize as you pointed out, drinking problems only get worse, never better. It's like a down elevator, you can chose to get off at any floor by stopping or you can continue to ride it all the way down. I was so lucky I got off just before my body completely gave out. Please don't make my mistakes.
After being sober for a while I realize as you pointed out, drinking problems only get worse, never better. It's like a down elevator, you can chose to get off at any floor by stopping or you can continue to ride it all the way down. I was so lucky I got off just before my body completely gave out. Please don't make my mistakes.
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