I Don't Want to Drink.
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I Don't Want to Drink.
I have not drank since Saturday. My husband will be at a work dinner tonight and I could drink without him knowing. I want to drink now. I want to not have to think about this.
I hate that I have become this. I hate how much I have embarrassed him. I hate that my two year old has seen me wasted. I hate that I am here. I hate everything.
I hate that I have become this. I hate how much I have embarrassed him. I hate that my two year old has seen me wasted. I hate that I am here. I hate everything.
Welcome to SR.
It's maddening to know that alcohol is ruining your life and still feel like you want to drink. Maddening, frustrating and irritating.
What can you do to work out some frustrations this evening without drinking? Music, exercise, play with the kid? Think of something. Sitting around thinking about not drinking is the pits!
Work on your new sober life. You can do this.
It's maddening to know that alcohol is ruining your life and still feel like you want to drink. Maddening, frustrating and irritating.
What can you do to work out some frustrations this evening without drinking? Music, exercise, play with the kid? Think of something. Sitting around thinking about not drinking is the pits!
Work on your new sober life. You can do this.
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I have not drank since Saturday. My husband will be at a work dinner tonight and I could drink without him knowing. I want to drink now. I want to not have to think about this.
I hate that I have become this. I hate how much I have embarrassed him. I hate that my two year old has seen me wasted. I hate that I am here. I hate everything.
I hate that I have become this. I hate how much I have embarrassed him. I hate that my two year old has seen me wasted. I hate that I am here. I hate everything.
I finally accepted that I could not drink alcohol in SAFETY. Like it or not. At that point recovery started.
BE WELL
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I just keep telling myself to keep breathing. To take a minute at a time. But the craving is so strong I don't know how much longer I can fight it. I have been in therapy for over a year. I feel like the more I "uncover" about myself, the more I want to drink.
I need to make it another day.
I need to make it another day.
Don't drink tonight and I bet you love how you feel waking up sober tomorrow.
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I know you are right. I just need to get to tomorrow to feel better.
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I have read this as well (somewhere). I just swallowed two Hershey bars almost whole. Thank you for the suggestion.
Hi Kim, don't put too much pressure on yourself, small victories mean a hell of a lot so don't think about anything other than to make it another day without giving in. Nobody can look too far ahead every day you get stronger and stronger and time will pass by regardless how you spend it, I am living proof that you can do it. All the best Kim. Stuart.
I know coffee took the initial edge of for me, but exercise if unable to sleep really helped me get a fresh perspective on things.. You will feel great in the morning if you can resist believe me.
It's ok to hate everything right now. I was right there, exactly where you are, at Day 4. I swore, a lot, during those first few days. It's perfectly normal, and it's all part of the process.
You won't drink today. You won't drink because you know how important this is to you and to your family. You won't drink because, deep down inside, you know that the guilt and shame you will feel if you do drink will make you feel even worse than you feel today. And you won't drink because tomorrow, and each day you stay sober, it will get a little easier, and life will get a little better.
Good luck. Please let us know how things turn out.
You won't drink today. You won't drink because you know how important this is to you and to your family. You won't drink because, deep down inside, you know that the guilt and shame you will feel if you do drink will make you feel even worse than you feel today. And you won't drink because tomorrow, and each day you stay sober, it will get a little easier, and life will get a little better.
Good luck. Please let us know how things turn out.
Kim's Friend - have you checked out the Class of March support thread yet?
It might be another help in fighting against those cravings.
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...rt-5-a-14.html
also check out this link:
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...-cravings.html
It might be another help in fighting against those cravings.
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...rt-5-a-14.html
also check out this link:
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...-cravings.html
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