nicole100

Well, after 9 weeks of sobriety, I drank last night. About 6 glasses of wine. I didn't enjoy it, it tasted like crap, I felt guilty, it didn't solve my problems and I feel like crap today. Plus I probably gained a pound or 2.

I did realize that I don't miss it. I don't WANT it in my life. So for that, I guess I am okay with what I did.

I realy enjoy being sober. I am re-committing to my sobriety and my health.

It really isn't worth drinking. Not in any way.

Mistical

Sometimes we fall but the most important part is that you realize you made a mistake and your recommitting! I know it's hard sometimes but you can do this!

Tang

If you don't mind me asking, was there a specific trigger? Person? Event?

nicole100

Yes. My lease is up and not being renewed. My mom lives down the street but won't let me stay in her guest room for 2 weeks while I sort out my finances for a new place.

My sister talked her into not helping me and now I am on my own and scared.

serenitynowplz

Don't beat yourself up over it. I have done the same thing and each time I'm reminded that I feel like crap and it wasn't worth it at all. I'm glad I'm not the only one

Tang

I'm sorry for your situation. I'm guessing you don't have another friend you could stay with temporarily?

nicole100

My boyfriend had offered to lend me the money needed...but we have been dating less than a month and that makes me uncomfortable. A woman at work offered but she is a bit of a busybody and just not sure I could pull through living there at all...
I can get a hotel..but there goes the money needed for the apartment.

Carlotta

What about the YMCA? or even an hostel? it s safe and would be much cheaper.

FreeOwl

welcome back.

good onya for the courage to own up.

I'd say, focus on this;

"I did realize that I don't miss it. I don't WANT it in my life. So for that, I guess I am okay with what I did.

I realy enjoy being sober. I am re-committing to my sobriety and my health."

Often it's the failures that make us realize how badly we want the success...

nicole100

1. I have a dog.
2. I would rather sleep in my car and shower at work or the gym.

Carlotta

Absolutely if you have a car. I lived in a tent for 2 years. Winters were a bit rough but this is spring and as long as your car don't get towed, you'll be ok. Just find a friendly site for the night, a church might be sympathetic if you approach the pastor and explain your situation and ask for permission to park overnight on their lot. http://livesafely.org/personal-freed...e-in-your-car/
http://carliving.info/homeless/index.html

BradJustBrad

Nicole, sorry to hear about your situation, but I think it's a tremendous realization you've made that you don't WANT to drink any more. That was a watershed moment for me.

Good for you for getting right back up.

MythOfSisyphus

There are usually some options better than sleeping in your car. But if you go that route usually Wal-Mart parking lots are pretty safe places to park. They don't seem to mind and lots of campers seem to park there.

Dee74

I'm sorry you're still dealing with the accomodation Nicole. I hope you work something out.

It's way better to put your energies into trying to solve that than it is drinking

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Change4good

Pick yourself up, and move on. Wishing you well.

nicole100

Update...after sleepless nights and days scouring Craigslist, I have 2 great options. And my boyfriend is loaning my the deposit money.

I am relieved though nothing is in writing yet. But sad that I am estranged from my family currently...and for nothing that I did wrong.

And I have not had another drink. I really prefer water now....weird.

Dee74

Glad things are looking up Nicole

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MythOfSisyphus

Ah, family...a great blessing or a great curse, sometimes both at once. I'm glad you're close to having something worked out, Liss. And maybe down the road you might come to some accord with your estranged family. All is possible when you're sober!