Going back to work
I haven't worked more than a few days for about five months and I'm newly sober. I got a full-time, permanent job last week and it's so, so difficult. Aside from being absolutely exhausted, I feel totally unmotivated and ill suited to the job.
I used to be a very erratic, super efficient worker. I became very highly strung and really good at every job I've had (mostly temporary roles) however, since I made the decision to stop drinking, even though I've relapsed, I'm a lot calmer. I appreciate that some tasks take priority over others, but I can't go back to that intense, frenzied work that my coworkers seem to participate in.
I don't know what to do. I just can't seem to adapt back into full-time work and I guess I just feel like a different person to my previous work-mode and I don't know how to deal with it.
Sorry if this is a bit garbled.