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smoking
Ok.
I quit drugs, all sorts of
, getting high in general is my DOC, weed was most easy to get my hands on.
However, I did almost everydrug except crack, crystal meth and heroine.
Depending on scene and people I hang out with.
12 months or so free of drugs I think.
Drinking, I did that when I couldn't get high.
Haven't been drunk in five years or so. Haven't drank at all last since ???,
I can honestly NOT remember and that is a good thing.
The last nine months or so.
I have been struggling with smoking sigarettes.
Withdrawl, anxiety, all sorts of emotions, relapse.
Guilt.
Withdrawl, anxiety, all sorts of emotions, relapse.
guilt.
Withdrawl, anxiety, all sorts of emotions, relapse.
etc. etc.
For a big part is has been a learning experience about my addictive personality
It doesn't matter what the 'drug' is, I'll get addicted.
I'll proberly get in the in dirty-rinze-repeat cycle with M&M's or cornflakes too if I let myself.
Today is time for a another day 1.
Sigaret free.
I don't know if i'll smoke tomorrow, but not today.
For I am an addict.
And completely powerless (like a baby or toddler) over my addictive personality.
I quit drugs, all sorts of
, getting high in general is my DOC, weed was most easy to get my hands on.However, I did almost everydrug except crack, crystal meth and heroine.
Depending on scene and people I hang out with.
12 months or so free of drugs I think.
Drinking, I did that when I couldn't get high.
Haven't been drunk in five years or so. Haven't drank at all last since ???,
I can honestly NOT remember and that is a good thing.
The last nine months or so.
I have been struggling with smoking sigarettes.
Withdrawl, anxiety, all sorts of emotions, relapse.
Guilt.
Withdrawl, anxiety, all sorts of emotions, relapse.
guilt.
Withdrawl, anxiety, all sorts of emotions, relapse.
etc. etc.
For a big part is has been a learning experience about my addictive personality
It doesn't matter what the 'drug' is, I'll get addicted.
I'll proberly get in the in dirty-rinze-repeat cycle with M&M's or cornflakes too if I let myself.
Today is time for a another day 1.
Sigaret free.
I don't know if i'll smoke tomorrow, but not today.
For I am an addict.
And completely powerless (like a baby or toddler) over my addictive personality.
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Join Date: Mar 2013
Location: Midwest
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Coming clean, smoking cigarettes was/is part of my alcoholic husband's addiction also. He hid both of these things from me for years. He's working thru the A issues for now, says he will know when it's time to address the smoking problem.
I wish you strength to get thru today smoke free--as an ex-smoker myself, I agree w/Dee74, your lungs will thank you and so will the rest of your body!
I wish you strength to get thru today smoke free--as an ex-smoker myself, I agree w/Dee74, your lungs will thank you and so will the rest of your body!
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Join Date: Jul 2013
Location: Oklahoma
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I tell people all the time that I could be addicted to anything so I feel ya friend! I'm on day 5 without my electronic cigs & nicotine withdrawal honestly just sucks but it's getting better everyday! Hang in there! You've got this!
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