Again
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Again
Seems I find myself on SR once again.
In the past ...Mostly a watcher. Looker. Reader... Analyzer before. But I tried to understand by seeing it all and in the end I realize I'm right in it.
Deflated and guilty. I'm so sorry for what I've had. I'm so sorry for those silent innate yet harsh judgements I had. Flushed and hyped. Red and tired. quick to judge my own people and others I see for losing control .. Having so much ... Time again. Now I'm noticing I have the same bad habits. I have had them for so long. I am tired . What a mess. I'm here now.
In the past ...Mostly a watcher. Looker. Reader... Analyzer before. But I tried to understand by seeing it all and in the end I realize I'm right in it.
Deflated and guilty. I'm so sorry for what I've had. I'm so sorry for those silent innate yet harsh judgements I had. Flushed and hyped. Red and tired. quick to judge my own people and others I see for losing control .. Having so much ... Time again. Now I'm noticing I have the same bad habits. I have had them for so long. I am tired . What a mess. I'm here now.
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Join Date: May 2012
Location: UK
Posts: 1,361
Hey there Gentle Soul
A strange 'blessing' of our own struggles is that it seems to knock that judgemental part off of us (or at least knock a large chunk of it off). When I was younger I had a very condescending view of those that had 'fallen' into alcoholism or some other addiction. I perhaps had some pity, but little compassion. But pride becomes a fall. I am now actually a little grateful for my struggles (though I can't embrace the pain I caused others). My heart is softer, well most of the time anyway.
Try not to look at yourself with too much guilt. Be as compassionate with yourself as with others. Apply that Gentle Soul to yourself.
God bless you.
A strange 'blessing' of our own struggles is that it seems to knock that judgemental part off of us (or at least knock a large chunk of it off). When I was younger I had a very condescending view of those that had 'fallen' into alcoholism or some other addiction. I perhaps had some pity, but little compassion. But pride becomes a fall. I am now actually a little grateful for my struggles (though I can't embrace the pain I caused others). My heart is softer, well most of the time anyway.
Try not to look at yourself with too much guilt. Be as compassionate with yourself as with others. Apply that Gentle Soul to yourself.
God bless you.
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