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Hi. First post here. I fell off the wagon. Getting back on today. Dumped the bottles, dealing with the hangover. Ready to start over.

Welcome, belk. You will find a lot of support here.

Good job on dumping the bottles.

Welcome!

Great job on dumping the bottles!

Welcome belk :)

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Welcome to the SR family. :) I'm glad you're giving it another go. :hug:

Welcome. You have a plan in place to stopping and staying stopped?

No plan. I have been sober for some time before this. I found by cutting out certain people in my life and keeping busy I didn't drink. I have had a lot of time to myself lately and idle hands.

Strangely, I am getting really intense cravings. Not sure why, nothing triggers it I will just feel compelled to drink for no reason. The past month or so it seems like I just can't catch a break. I got some bad news about a job, and a friend is going to die soon. When I got the news I didn't have any urge to drink... even after a week when it really set in I didn't want to drink. I drank again for no god damn reason, simply acted on an craving.

Great resilience Belk :c011:

Belk, if you would, read this thread, at least the first post:

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ined-long.html

It may help shed the light on "no reason". I chose the technique mentioned in the thread to quit but there are many different recovery methods.

Some of the others are mentioned here:

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...formation.html

I'd send this in a PM but I can't until I have 5 posts. What dose the RT part of AVRT stand for?

A=Addictive
V=Voice
R=Recognition
T=Technique

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Hangover is completely gone. No more anxiety. It was a killer yesterday. I'm pretty closeted about being an alcoholic/addict. Only family and some friends know. I can't tell them if I slip up because I end up being shunned for a period of time, or they'll try to put together some big intervention (for a slip up), and than they tell their friends. I'm in a small town and word spreads like wildfire. Overall not a good thing to confess, but also a very hard thing to hide. Thank you guys for listening and not judging.

Today was a good day. Mostly because I wasn't being judged or pitied. Had it been found out I slipped up other people in my life dwell on it for a long time. To any newcomers to recovery the best advice I can give is to move on. I could have spent today dwelling on the fact I messed up in a big way, and felt guilty and blah blah blah, but I didn't. I am human and I make mistakes. The past is the past.

I lost a lot of clean/sober time. I feel like that should bother me, but it doesn't. I had such a difficult time getting off drugs that I don't actually know the date I stopped on because I had to try so many times. I'm not gonna remember that I got sober again on 3/20/14 because it doesn't matter to me. I'm clean and sober now and that's what matters.

You have a plan in place?