Taking my life back With therapy and some good soul searching I have realized that as much as I want to be in control of drinking, I can not be, I am not wired that way. As a child I was abused for a number of years and someone else had control. In my teenage years and as an adult this has led me to be a control freak over everything. When drinking got out of hand, I rejected the fact that I couldn't control it and I have continued to do just that. Last night it dawned on me that I haven't been in control, I have let alcohol run the show. WOW, what a realization that was for me!!! Here I had been thinking I was controlling my life, but in reality I have been letting alcohol do that!!! Well, to that I say NO MORE!!! I am letting God take the reigns and will put my trust back into Him, all I can do is the next right thing and that starts with not drinking. I know I have to work out what I will do to keep this momentum, but I just needed to get this out in the universe today. |
I remember having that same moment of realizing just how real the fact was that I cannot control my drinking. I think it has made a big difference in my sobriety. Glad you had the same moment too! |
I had a revalations once like that, too. I turned things over to Him and I've been able to stop after a thirty year drinking career. Best to you. |
Glad you've made the choice to stop Anchor. I remember the moment I finally realized i was going to quit and it was a huge relief. Your trust in god will certainly be a big part of your recovery, but remember that you need to also have a plan other than just "not drinking". Do you have one? Can we help you come up with one if you don't? |
That's great Anchorbird. I have similar circumstances, and added to that my parents gave me no freedom whatsoever and no opportunities to make choices for myself. I turned into a major control-freak too, though I wasn't yet drinking. But, I slowly drove myself crazy trying to control things in my life. Alcoholism is very sneaky and like you, I wasn't aware that I was giving away control of my life when I started drinking. But, when I stopped drinking, I felt so much peace. |
I hope you can make this a turning point AB :) D |
I hope this can be your successful attempt at sobriety. :) |
Sounds like a breakthrough for sure anchor. I'm happy you've come to this realization. :hug: |
You can do this--sounds like you are ready ab |
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