Natalie17

Lastchance, Aarrychka is right. Actions speak louder than words. You say your kids are still with you. Show them that you can do this. I'm sure they will tell your husband. It will be tough, but I know you can do it. One day at a time.

Ruby2

Someone just posted a thread on self sabotage. Many of us do it. It seems as though you just did by stopping at the store, knowing the possible consequences. Your husband set a boundary which you crossed. You also posted that perhaps you were not sure you were ready for sobriety. Perhaps you pushed the boundary to see how far you could or maybe to force a "bottom" to your drinking?

I am not posting this to be mean. I've done the same thing myself. And it hurts a lot. My husband packed the kids up and took them out of the house because he didn't want to leave them with me. Drunk. He had said that he would do that if I kept drinking. I kept drinking and he took them. I was in denial and thought he couldn't be serious. I tested. It didn't work out. I went to rehab at that point. Call someone. It is really painful now, I am sure. And you hurt. Make a plan of action like Aarrykha said. Actions do speak louder than words. You can do this but it will take time. Dump out any that you have left. Eat something. Go to bed and start calling support.

Looking4Help123

One thing that helped me lastchance was when i realised that alcohol was not the release i wanted. It was bringing back reality 10 times harder with even more issues each time i woke up and realised what kind of mess i was in.

Its never too late, hope you can see that.

KateL

Just show them xxxxx

Dee74

Hi lastchance.

I'm sorry for whats happening - it makes a hard thing even harder.

I think you're ready...your addiction will try and tell you otherwise - especially when you're drinking...but noone joins and posts on SR if they like where they are.

Do this for you, and the kids.

D

Csilla1

Dear Lastchance.

You need to make this your first chance as being real. Alcohol is not real. It is not pretty. It is not
Sophisticated. It destroys friendships. It tears apart families. It hurts our hearts, our minds and our bodies. And now you have to un hurt your self. Your kids will really be able to rally around
You when you find the way to face up to day 1.
Because day 2 follows before you know it.
And everyday that follows is a day you deserve to be your best sober self. I believe you want to do
this. We all believe you can.

Straightshoot

We haven't heard from Lastchance. I sincerely hope she is alright.

Csilla1

Me too.