bradley26

Well 73 days of no alcohol ended tonight and it probably wasn't worth it. It was a decision I had made as I had told myself Monday would be the day I really knuckled down and started a fresh, Part of my mind is going mad at me but the other part is telling me to calm down. To be honest I feel like a scumbag. I was on here yesterday when I was struggling and it helped a lot, more than I thought it would as I don't come on here a lot. What I have noticed is that if I have structure to my days then it stops me rom drinking or over eating and being a mess. Im drunk tonight and feel like sh,, thinking about my ex and stuff but I really do feel like im aking progress a little. I just had to come on here and say that I had drunk as I do feel like a fraud. Happy Saturday night everyone.

Dee74

I'm sorry you drank again Bradley but I'm glad to see you're recommitting to sobriety (at least I think you are ? the 'probably wasn't worth it' throws me a little?)

I think there's some lessons here if you want to take some positives out of the situation.

Support seems to help you - and when you don't use that support you tend to drink again.

Is that a fair observation, do you think?

D

bradley26

Yeah Dee the probably wasn't worth it was definetly a ''Was not worth it'' and I have realised that I do need support like this forum or something else. The only thing that makes me feel better is that this dosnt fell like a normal slip up, its just one day so aslong as get back to ''normal I can carry on.

Goldcoastgirl

You are definitely not a fraud - coming from a fellow slipee (if there is such a word!) it makes me feel so much better coming on here and being honest. It is like being honest to yourself in a way and what is the point of wanting help and then lying (or lying by omission) about stuff. You did well and should be proud of yourself for admitting it. Now you can move forward with a clear conscience x

Hawk07

Hi Bradley,

I too have slipped, last night on the heels of going through a really bad break up and thinking about the ex.. I was so hungover and down on my self all day just about all I could was post on this site, which has helped. Alcohol will only ever make everything tough your going through so much worse.. I fell into a pit of despair today that at moments I wondered if I would ever be able to get out of it.

Remember alcohol is a depressant and will always magnify all negative feelings (sadness, loneliness, low self esteem) tremendously.

Glad you're posting and wishing you much luck and strength with this struggle.

least

Get back up and start fresh tomorrow.

instant

It's a hard nut to crack, and the game never finishes. Striving to get and stay sober is worth it. Have another go- try not to make the same mistakes

I was always my own worst enemy

KateL

Your honestly is refreshing. Just try and learn from it as you move forward xxxxxx