Thoughts after 4 weeks
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Thoughts after 4 weeks
Today marks 4 weeks of sobriety. The day-to-day has been getting easier - I can read or go on the computer in the evening without constantly thinking about a drink. I definitely feel better rested and more productive during the day.
Had a couple 'firsts' this week. Went out to eat last weekend with a couple that drinks almost as much as I did. Now the usual routine used to be, have 2 or 3 at home before going out, have 3 or 4 with dinner and have another 3 or 4 upon coming home to unwind before bed. Last weekend when the server came, I ordered a Diet Coke and the other couple immediately became concerned - "What?, is everything ok?" I just said I was giving it a rest for awhile and changed the subject. Later in the night one of them pulled me aside and asked me very earnestly - "so what's going on?" Geez..I guess seeing me without a drink set off all kinds of alarms.
Had a lunch outing a local pub the next day. Since it was noon on a Saturday, it didn't raise too many eyebrows that I ordered a Coke instead of a beer. I dread giving people a reason why I'm abstaining more than the actual act of abstaining. I don't feel like saying, 'I realized 30 years of hard drinking was causing health issues' It's nobody's business but me and my family, really.
I'm also starting to understand the need the alcohol filled for me. 5:00 pm was like safe haven. The day-to-day cares of the workday were not allowed in once the drinking started. There's a quote, “When you drank the world was still out there, but for the moment it didn’t have you by the throat.” and I can relate to that. But the world and all its cares and demands are waiting for you when the sun rises. In fact they have a nasty habit of mutiplying while you drink.
So that's it for now - hope you all have a great week. Thanks for reading.
Had a couple 'firsts' this week. Went out to eat last weekend with a couple that drinks almost as much as I did. Now the usual routine used to be, have 2 or 3 at home before going out, have 3 or 4 with dinner and have another 3 or 4 upon coming home to unwind before bed. Last weekend when the server came, I ordered a Diet Coke and the other couple immediately became concerned - "What?, is everything ok?" I just said I was giving it a rest for awhile and changed the subject. Later in the night one of them pulled me aside and asked me very earnestly - "so what's going on?" Geez..I guess seeing me without a drink set off all kinds of alarms.
Had a lunch outing a local pub the next day. Since it was noon on a Saturday, it didn't raise too many eyebrows that I ordered a Coke instead of a beer. I dread giving people a reason why I'm abstaining more than the actual act of abstaining. I don't feel like saying, 'I realized 30 years of hard drinking was causing health issues' It's nobody's business but me and my family, really.
I'm also starting to understand the need the alcohol filled for me. 5:00 pm was like safe haven. The day-to-day cares of the workday were not allowed in once the drinking started. There's a quote, “When you drank the world was still out there, but for the moment it didn’t have you by the throat.” and I can relate to that. But the world and all its cares and demands are waiting for you when the sun rises. In fact they have a nasty habit of mutiplying while you drink.
So that's it for now - hope you all have a great week. Thanks for reading.
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Originally Posted by Alkaline 
But the world and all its cares and demands are waiting for you when the sun rises. In fact they have a nasty habit of mutiplying while you drink.
Do they ever, it's not easy, but this helps. Thanks!
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