SevenNuts

For me to stop drinking, I need to do something differently than I am now. In a down state about my life situation last night, I drank. This was an irrational and irresponsible decision. But it just sort of happened. I knew it wasn't a good idea in the back of my head, but my mind and body just did it. Nothing could stop me.

The only thing I can think of to help me at this point is to become involved with AA. Perhaps I need to surrender to the program. But right now I think if I made friends with some sober guys, got a sponsor, picked up the phone and stayed in touch, perhaps last night I would have called someone and that would have made a difference. I simply will not stop unless I do something differently. And I don't want to just "keep drinking" until I hit a lower bottom. I'm pretty low right now.

I had so much resolve and determination to not drink. I am baffled.

I'd like suggestions.

Sparkos

Would it be possible for you to go to an inpatient recovery facility.
I went for a month and whilst I did use and drink later, it did give me space to work out some stuff and to learn a whole lot more about addiction.

doggonecarl

That probably would have helped. Would you have called? You could have logged on and come to SR with your issues. You didn't.

You said it yourself, you need to do something differently.

I had 35 years of drinking to change. Part of the change was taking drinking off the table completely. I had to completely accept that I was done with alcohol, forever.

If AA can get to the that state of change, do it.

Dee74

I think you need to look at what you're prepared to do and do it...

if going to AA, getting a sponsor and doing the Steps is an option for you then do it...it's certainly the most widely accessible option.

I bet you could hit a meeting somewhere & start things within the next 18 hours