Erratic

against the drink :**

I went out sunday night and had drink, yesterday I hid my drink in a bottle of coke. Today ive done it again. What am I doing?

I have a hospital appointment which I phoned them only last week saying the lump in my collar bone has now become 2. I saw them in jan which they said my lymph node is just scared, but do phone if any changes happen. Sry im not looking for sympathy or anything its just a fact im facing just now and yeah could be the meaning why im drinking.

I am at a loss just now in pushing myself even though I said I would give 100% in doing this. I just need to come back to here and fight on.

I am going to AA meeting on Thursday, the one I did 2 weeks ago, I couldn't go last week due to I was waiting for phone call from hospital.


God all the I in my post above, is im being selfish and should be fighting more and say more about we my family who is suffering through this due to me the I.

Thanks for reading and sry that there is no good news.

tornrealization

I think there is good news here. You are posting. I see it as a sign you want to keep fighting.

FeelingGreat

Hi Erratic, it's not selfish to concentrate on yourself if that's what it takes to get sober. Please keep trying, drinking is very hard on the body and mind. Becoming sober will be the best present you could give yourself and your family.

Aarryckha

Hang in there. Keep trying.

Let's face it. If it was easy, there would be no AA, no SR, no any kind of support/recovery needed because we would all be sober with no worries of relapses.

Erratic

Thanks guys xx

Todays the day anyway for my appointment.

Ive made sure that I have taken all my tablets and going to say I am going to be sober today.

Thanks for everyones support xx

MythOfSisyphus

I think you're making progress, Erratic. You're trying, and that alone is good news.

KateL

Keep fighting Erratic xxxx