Event1

Hi all,
My names Jay,im a 41 year old male currently through 6 months of a 12 month driving ban for driving over the limit.
I hadnt had a skinfull-3 pints,but i never really thought much of a couple of pints and driving,it was 'normal' to me.
This was my first offence,and in a way its made me realise how alcohol has always ruined my life.
I had a quick read through some posts when i first came on this forum,and some lad had put how when he goes out for a drink with mates he does not drink to relax,or socialise or have fun-he drinks to get drunk-and that is exactly how ive always been.
Its put me in so many bad situations-most completely blanked from my memory-i would only get told what i did the next day-then i just wanted to die!!!
Because of the ban,ive had to move closer to my work,they were very good to me,thank God,and so was determined not to drink so much.
By the way,i really dont drink that much,very little in the week-if any-then like this weekend,i drank a bottle of wine on Friday,Saturday a bottle,then went back out at 10 to local shop and bought another,drank that-if i could of,id probably gone out and got another.Thats the thing with me-i just cant stop once ive started.
Looking back through my life,drinking has cost me everything.Many girlfriends and relationships. Freindships-mates ive pissed off and shocked when im hammered. Not to mention hurt to my family-even though they dont show it.
It could of cost me my job this time. I really need to get a hold on it-i need help to do this,i believe ive got the willpower- but im scared what ill do without it. That sounds nuts i know,but ive always had it,its etched into my whole life,always has. My Dad was a big drinker,as is my older brother and my sister,its how we grew up. Most of my remaining friends only contact me when they want a bender-so maybe i need to distance myself.
Thanks for listening,any help will be appreciated

Anna

Hi and Welcome,

It doesn't sounds nuts at all. I had no idea how I would get through an evening without drinking, never mind a week or a month. This is what the disease does to us. And, early recovery often involves a lot of change, because we can't just stop drinking and expect the rest of our lives to work out.

I hope that you continue to read and post.

least

I didn't know what I'd do if I didn't drink but soon discovered I could do anything, and do it better sober.

I'm glad you joined us. You'll find a lot of support here.

Ghostlight1

I never drank to be social or have a little fun or anything else, like you, I drank to get drunk.
I did this for years until I was drinking alone at 8am. It's progessive. So, it's great you're realizng you may have a problem.
Welcome to the forum, and you can quit.

KateL

Welcome Jay. You have come to a good place xxx

Dee74

Hi and welcome Jay - I had no idea what I was going to do either - my life had been drinking or drugs for 20 years.

But you live your life, one day at a time, you don't drink, and learn to live without it.

You'll come to see it's not actually a deprivation - when alcohol and drugs left my life, some amazing things rushed in to filled the vaccuum

D

Event1

Hi,thanks to you all for your replys.Will be nice knowing i can talk to people who have been in the same boat!
Im starting today,i will stick to it,time to move on.
Its going to be difficult,im living in a town where i know no-one, i cant drive, and my 'mates' thrive on getting on it.LOL.
So maybe a good time to start fresh.
It really cant get any worse,so ive nothing to lose,hopefully lots to gain.
Thanks to you all again for your kind comments ))

Hevyn

Welcome Jay. I felt the same as you when I joined SR. The people here helped me turn everything around. There is life after alcohol - we promise. You can do this.