Newbie here having tough time
Charles
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Join Date: Mar 2014
Location: Paso Robles Calif
Posts: 1
Newbie here having tough time
Hello
Having a tough time shaking the little drinking I still do but am trying.
Ive been drinking since the age of 18 (I remember my first drink at the
county fair back in 84 and how good that first buzz felt I will,never will be able to feel that same feeling again even though ive chased it for 30 yrs and abused my privelges along the way.)
Thing is I was never that a binge drinker or 12 pack a night drinker but usually
3 or 4 beers a evry other night an a hard party once a week.
Last 4 yrs have been a combo of heavy wine drinking every night or other night.
and within last year tapered down to a glass here and there with a shot ocassionally and a few beers here and there.
Last 3 months mainly just a few beers and have cut way down.
Just having a tough time because the less alchohol the more depression and anxiety,
Its really coming on with a vengeance last couple of nights with heavy
anxiety ,bad dreams and no sleep.last night felt like I was gonna die
and didn't get but maybe one hour of shallow sleep.My heart was racing and blood pressure was through the roof.Today really depressed.
No matter what tried couldnt shake it.
Im scared to try to sleep tonight because of the hell I went through last night.
They only thing that helped me get trough it was reading about others going
through the same or worse.
I think my body is detoxing again due to last couple of weeks of increased
alchohol consumption again.So have to go through withdrawl again
back and forth but hope to stop altogether after this.
Last night was hell and is enough reason to make me wanna quit.
Wish me luck tonight,
Having a tough time shaking the little drinking I still do but am trying.
Ive been drinking since the age of 18 (I remember my first drink at the
county fair back in 84 and how good that first buzz felt I will,never will be able to feel that same feeling again even though ive chased it for 30 yrs and abused my privelges along the way.)
Thing is I was never that a binge drinker or 12 pack a night drinker but usually
3 or 4 beers a evry other night an a hard party once a week.
Last 4 yrs have been a combo of heavy wine drinking every night or other night.
and within last year tapered down to a glass here and there with a shot ocassionally and a few beers here and there.
Last 3 months mainly just a few beers and have cut way down.
Just having a tough time because the less alchohol the more depression and anxiety,
Its really coming on with a vengeance last couple of nights with heavy
anxiety ,bad dreams and no sleep.last night felt like I was gonna die
and didn't get but maybe one hour of shallow sleep.My heart was racing and blood pressure was through the roof.Today really depressed.
No matter what tried couldnt shake it.
Im scared to try to sleep tonight because of the hell I went through last night.
They only thing that helped me get trough it was reading about others going
through the same or worse.
I think my body is detoxing again due to last couple of weeks of increased
alchohol consumption again.So have to go through withdrawl again
back and forth but hope to stop altogether after this.
Last night was hell and is enough reason to make me wanna quit.
Wish me luck tonight,
RaleighSoxFan
Join Date: Feb 2014
Location: Raleigh, NC
Posts: 105
Welcome! It's courageous of you to seek answers here. You'll find everyone is here to help. The depression you feel is natural. It will take some time. There are some physiological reasons due to alcohol that leaves one depressed in its absence. It will get better. Just understand that thee stmptoms are not unique. Its to be expected. Just seek help and keep coming here. Lots of great ppl and info on this site. Good luck and welcome again! U will see you are stronger thanu know
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