sircaptnobvious

At first I started going to AA meetings and everything was fine. I thought, "Man, this is a breeze!" Not so much now. I'm finding now that when ever I get sad or depressed I have the urge to turn to the very thing that got me in the mess I'm in, in the first place. This is hard...

KateL

Hang on in there. It gets better xxxxx

firstymer

Yes. It is hard. But it is worth it.

Stay strong, sircaptnobvious. You can DO this.

Welcome to SR. I am glad you are here with us.

Anna

It's the hardest thing I've ever done, but it's worth it.

seeks

You can do it! The pendulum is always swinging

Dee74

Hi and welcome sircaptnobvious

It is hard, but not impossible. Adding more support helps so it's good to have you here.
You'll get through this

D

sircaptnobvious

Thank you. All of you. You made me smile. I needed that.

least

I'm glad you found us and joined the family. It's hard at first but it will get easier, I promise.

DarkDays

Never give in ! Gotta grind through the early weeks months to get to a place where you know you can make it !

Hevyn

Glad to meet you sir. We promise it won't feel like this forever. It gets easier & better as you get some sober time behind you. You don't want to go back to that old, miserable situation - you can do this!

sugarbear1

work them steps!

Bruce292

Welcome to SR

I've found sobriety to be a lot of hard work. I carve out time most days to exercise, meditate, write in my journal, read posts in SR, etc. All my demons were waiting for me when I finally put down the bottle and all the drugs. The hard part has been dealing with and silencing their constant mental chatter and getting past the physical weight of depression. There's light at the end of the tunnel ... there really is. Congratulations on 17 days. You should be *really* proud of accomplishing that. Hang in there and keep posting.

malcolmsloan

I'm about ready to start month 4, and, yeah, it's work. But is is so much easier than dealing with all the sh!@ of my drinking life.
Hang in there!

Imabuleva

It could be worse.

You could be stuck in the cycle of addiction. Instead you're here and working on it, just like the rest of us.

Nice to have you here.

FeelingGreat

Yeah there seems to be cycles where you're feeling fine one day then other days it's hard. As time goes on the urges fade and your confidence increases.
Be careful of the stage where your AV tells you you've changed and moderation will now be possible. It won't.

gleefan

Bruce - good advice on how to work towards being comfortable and peaceful in sobriety. Thank you.

Axle

I hear ya, I've relapsed in the past in the post honeymoon.
I now have 24 days. Yesterday started out freak in awesome ,then it turned..wholly crap,rough.i made it.today was no picnick but better, I know the outcome of drinking again will be the same...most likely worse.my sickness doesn't care.this morning I had24 days, by my eve meeting it felt like 27 days. Nope still the same day..my honeymoon is over and time is seeming to crawl.im going to wake up tomorrow and read my daily reflection, open my self up an do it again.

matt4x4

Were you working the steps or just going to meetings?
Just going to meetings does not keep any one sober.
You have to work the steps, right away. Do not delay.

LadyinBC

It is and was by far the scarest thing I have ever done. Once you can get thru this you will find that it gets easier to do things you never thought you would do. I have found that is the case for me!

Hang in there, the end rewards are so worth it when you really start getting better mentally and physically.

Nonsensical

You have an established pattern. It takes a while to establish a new pattern.

There are other paths to sobriety than AA. If you think it might not be working for you it might be worth your while to investigate some other things.

Best of Luck on Your Journey!