Autan 2.0 - Back to reality
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Join Date: Sep 2013
Location: UK
Posts: 482
Autan 2.0 - Back to reality
Hi Everyone,
Been offline for the past 3 weeks.
You know if you take half a glass of milk and add the other half with water, is it water or still milk ?
I had stopped drinking in October and then took a couple weeks off sobriety in December at Christmas and then been sober ever since.
A few weeks back, I felt completely lost, my business wasnt doing to well, because I felt I needed the old (Drunk) Autan back to sort everything.
I came on here and had a whinge about it and was about to go to supermarket to get a bottle of something/anything and then it hit me out of the blue.
The Autan without booze, was exactly the same as the Autan with booze, just lacking that crucial ingredient of "the booze". My solution was to add the booze, but in doing so, it would mean harming my health (its not so good) and putting me back in the situation room, I had just spent a great deal of time and effort trying to break free and escape from.
So I had a new solution. I would redesign myself.
Drink had robbed me of my health and my confidence without drink was at an all time low, so I decided to recreate my self in an image of my own choosing.
I sat down that evening and instead of whinging and moaning and bring everyone down to my own depressing level, I signed off and got a peace of paper and began (drink free I might add).
Personality, I want to be centred, calming and relaxed. I want to make decision carefully and think through them not just jumping into mistakes.
I wanted to open doors for people, and not just barge through looking after myself. I wanted to be careful with money and manage it wisely.
No more procrastinating and apportioning blame on others. This is my life and I intend to take control of it.
I am not an alcoholic, I am not a smoker. I am not a label. I am a human being and a human being redesigned to be better.
I took my family on a two week holiday to Thailand to a beach from property and practiced hypnotherapy up to 12 hours a day. I put my body through a rigourous exercise routine. Learnt a little Thai, eat well and spent a lovely two weeks with my family.
I am a better person now, than I was and I am now ready for lifes challenges.
When I said, that there is no going back to drink, I meant it and I am here today still sober, but stronger now than ever.
Been offline for the past 3 weeks.
You know if you take half a glass of milk and add the other half with water, is it water or still milk ?
I had stopped drinking in October and then took a couple weeks off sobriety in December at Christmas and then been sober ever since.
A few weeks back, I felt completely lost, my business wasnt doing to well, because I felt I needed the old (Drunk) Autan back to sort everything.
I came on here and had a whinge about it and was about to go to supermarket to get a bottle of something/anything and then it hit me out of the blue.
The Autan without booze, was exactly the same as the Autan with booze, just lacking that crucial ingredient of "the booze". My solution was to add the booze, but in doing so, it would mean harming my health (its not so good) and putting me back in the situation room, I had just spent a great deal of time and effort trying to break free and escape from.
So I had a new solution. I would redesign myself.
Drink had robbed me of my health and my confidence without drink was at an all time low, so I decided to recreate my self in an image of my own choosing.
I sat down that evening and instead of whinging and moaning and bring everyone down to my own depressing level, I signed off and got a peace of paper and began (drink free I might add).
Personality, I want to be centred, calming and relaxed. I want to make decision carefully and think through them not just jumping into mistakes.
I wanted to open doors for people, and not just barge through looking after myself. I wanted to be careful with money and manage it wisely.
No more procrastinating and apportioning blame on others. This is my life and I intend to take control of it.
I am not an alcoholic, I am not a smoker. I am not a label. I am a human being and a human being redesigned to be better.
I took my family on a two week holiday to Thailand to a beach from property and practiced hypnotherapy up to 12 hours a day. I put my body through a rigourous exercise routine. Learnt a little Thai, eat well and spent a lovely two weeks with my family.
I am a better person now, than I was and I am now ready for lifes challenges.
When I said, that there is no going back to drink, I meant it and I am here today still sober, but stronger now than ever.
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Join Date: Dec 2013
Location: Rural Colorado
Posts: 376
Welcome back! I was actually quite worried about you. I think of the posters here as my friends (not sure if this is a good thing or not?) and I felt like my friend was missing. Sounds like you did what you needed to do and I am happy for you. Welcome back!
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