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Perhaps you are repeating this pattern because you are a straight up alcoholic. Can you have just one normal size drink and leave it alone? I could never do that. I drank to change the way I feel. I believed the lie that it would be different this time. It never is, but we tell ourselves that everytime we pick up that drink. And drink to oblivion it is, everytime. I have had unexplained bruises all over my body, black eyes, my knuckles bled from blackout fights. Who knows who won. I have had unexplained dents in my sports car. I am an alcoholic, this stuff is normal to me when I am drinking.
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Originally Posted by rmbrndt 
I'm pretty scared about the physical damage I've done. What are the stages you mention? I'm planning on AA before the week is over. I've always been convinced I didn't need it but that was just a way to keep lying to myself.
It might be just my personality, but the more I informed myself the easier it was to make the decision.
Re your doctor's visit. I've seen lots of posts from people who've damaged their livers, but luckily the liver is really good at healing and their levels have returned to normal in time. I personally found telling my doctor made it much more real although it took about a month for me to build up the willpower to stop. After that he would praise me every time he saw me and I loved that!
It can be hard to be truthful with a doctor, but do try. Write it on a slip of paper if you need to. That step of seeking help can make a big difference.
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Hi rmbrndt - welcome 
to stop repeating the pattern I had to do something different.
Coming is a great start - try and use us at least every say - reading and posting.
Join the Class Of February support thread if you like.
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...-part-4-a.html
There's also real life support like AA and I'm sure you'll find that beneficial too
Start your new life as soon as you can - you need never feel this way again.
The main thing - whatever you decide to do - is do something. Follow through.
In my experience, doing the same old things just leads to more drinking....
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to stop repeating the pattern I had to do something different.
Coming is a great start - try and use us at least every say - reading and posting.
Join the Class Of February support thread if you like.
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...-part-4-a.html
There's also real life support like AA and I'm sure you'll find that beneficial too
Start your new life as soon as you can - you need never feel this way again.
The main thing - whatever you decide to do - is do something. Follow through.
In my experience, doing the same old things just leads to more drinking....
D
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Good on you rmbrndt and good luck ahead! Here is a list of the generally accepted stages of alcoholism. My turnaround came by accepting that I am an alcoholic, seeing a doctor, and seeking help (including here on SR). I was in the last, desperate stage of alcoholism and it was the beginning of a transformation that changed my life. I hope the same happens to you!
Stages of Alcoholism – 1, 2, 3, 4 Alcoholism Stages You Should Know
Stages of Alcoholism – 1, 2, 3, 4 Alcoholism Stages You Should Know
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Originally Posted by Longpasttime
Its great to get action going while that disgust feeling is fresh. It tends to fade, ya know?
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