I don't believe it!
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I don't believe it!
I have just nine days sober, and my mind is telling me that it's time to stop by the liquor store! This really ticks me off! I went through hell last week to clean up my act, the shaking, sweating, frequent trips to the bathroom, not sleeping. I mean, what does it take. I can't believe it is already crossing my mind to start again. That's just nuts. I am so mad at myself for even contemplating the idea, that I refuse to do it.
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I thought the same thing. I'm on day 8 and I'm thinking alright I made it 8 days and my goal was 7 woohoo time to celebrate! But with what? How? I didn't go through too much hell physically, but then again I think back to why I decided to take a hiatus from alcohol to begin with (I am not convinced I am going to stop forever or if I want to)...is it worth it to go back and raise the risk again?
Hi 2much, well done on coming to SR and posting about it. Get used to cravings popping up for some time, because it's not just physical withdrawal but also a habit. Drinking is how you've coped with life up until now, so your AV is still wanting it's dose.
If you can accept that you will crave from time to time, and think in advance about how you'll deal with it you're less likely to relapse.
I'm almost 2 years in, and I still get the urge now and then, but it's much weaker than when I was first sober and I'm much more confident as well.
If you can accept that you will crave from time to time, and think in advance about how you'll deal with it you're less likely to relapse.
I'm almost 2 years in, and I still get the urge now and then, but it's much weaker than when I was first sober and I'm much more confident as well.
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I believe it.
You have an alcoholic mind, the world crashes around you when you drink, yet you want more. It will be different this time, your brain is telling a lie. It never is different. Yet you obsess over a drink. You take that drink and your body reacts by wanting more and more. You can control the obsession, the thought pattern. You cant control the body once it has a drop of alcohol.
You have an alcoholic mind, the world crashes around you when you drink, yet you want more. It will be different this time, your brain is telling a lie. It never is different. Yet you obsess over a drink. You take that drink and your body reacts by wanting more and more. You can control the obsession, the thought pattern. You cant control the body once it has a drop of alcohol.
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I have noticed this in my life...chaos is comfortable to me, it is "normalcy". I do not know what "normal" really is. A calm sea is WTF to me. Storms are normal. I know how to deal with chaos, not calm. Maybe that's why I engage in addictive behaviors...
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Thanks for all your support. It's just that I am in a very rotten mood, and it would be easy to drop by the liquor store, go home and kick back for a day or two and relax and forget stuff. I am way past the idea that I can moderate my drinking, so I know those two days would lead to two weeks, so I won't do it, but it is tempting. This bad mood will pass a lot quicker if I stay sober. If I drink, it will just put off dealing with this mood, because it will just show up again. Today I'm fine. I'll deal with tomorrow when tomorrow shows up.
Well done for hanging in 2much. Everything you've described about your earlier withdrawals - imagine, if you don't pick up a drink, you need never go through any of that again.
Love the feedback that these are just thoughts - we don't have respond to them anymore the way we used to. That's freedom
Love the feedback that these are just thoughts - we don't have respond to them anymore the way we used to. That's freedom
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Hi. I am having a bad time at the moment. Yesterday was a bad day. I drank. spent the evening emptying leftovers down the sink, then I threw up til 2 in the morning. Nice. I am back here again today, sober, (as I have been since June last year, and many times previously) and I knoiw what I knew yesterday, drinking is horrible, it makes you feel horrible. and it ruins your life. but I went back yesterday because I could not find a reason not to. I should have come here instead. back to day one.
Thanks for all your support. It's just that I am in a very rotten mood, and it would be easy to drop by the liquor store, go home and kick back for a day or two and relax and forget stuff. I am way past the idea that I can moderate my drinking, so I know those two days would lead to two weeks, so I won't do it, but it is tempting. This bad mood will pass a lot quicker if I stay sober. If I drink, it will just put off dealing with this mood, because it will just show up again. Today I'm fine. I'll deal with tomorrow when tomorrow shows up.
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