Back where I started
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Back where I started
Well I had a nice run I suppose. although it seems longer than two years, I was a member of the class of January 2012, after a disastrous New Year's Day. Things were going ok for me, but for some reason which I can't recall now, meeting old friends in New Orleans for the weekend seemed like a good idea. There was an incident in a bar, some sleeping in a bush, and a further incident at the hotel. I'm such an ass. Today I really feel awful, and know that I don't deserve the great family and friends that I have.. Not sure how I'm going to get through the rest of the day and night.
I know back in 2012 the fact that i put a few posts here really helped me accept reality, hoping for the same this time I suppose. Thanks.
I know back in 2012 the fact that i put a few posts here really helped me accept reality, hoping for the same this time I suppose. Thanks.
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Thanks for a timely warning to all of us.
I am sure that if I get too cocky I will end up back where I was for decades.
That's why I like coming here, going to meetings, and meditating every morning over the day ahead, along with a quick review of my rotten past..
I am sure you will now recoup and return to those infinitely saner better ways...
I am sure that if I get too cocky I will end up back where I was for decades.
That's why I like coming here, going to meetings, and meditating every morning over the day ahead, along with a quick review of my rotten past..
I am sure you will now recoup and return to those infinitely saner better ways...
Welcome back,It's so scary to read posts like yours when someone's been sober for so long then picks up again.It shows we can never think we're cured. You were sober for a long time though-do what you did then to get sober again.
hey.... you DO deserve the great family and friends you have and right now is a really great time to be grateful for them.
You screwed up. But that doesn't mean you're not deserving of goodness in your life.
Take this as a powerful reminder and vivid piece of evidence that sobriety IS the right path for you.
And thank you.... you're helping me stay sober today.
welcome back.
You screwed up. But that doesn't mean you're not deserving of goodness in your life.
Take this as a powerful reminder and vivid piece of evidence that sobriety IS the right path for you.
And thank you.... you're helping me stay sober today.
welcome back.
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Thanks everyone, I sure hope I can make this work. The whole thing seems so much more overwhelming and depressing than it did in 2012, I guess that time around had the "newness" factor, since it was my first attempt to go without alcohol for any extended length of time.
I'm glad to see you back kla. I do think posting & reading here regularly will help. At least you know you're never alone.
Sometimes we need further proof that we can't predict what'll happen when we pick up. I needed a few bad times like you described - any one of them could have led to disaster. I finally had to admit I couldn't touch it. It was easier than trying to control it and always failing. You don't need it in your life - we know you can get free of it. Never stop trying.
Sometimes we need further proof that we can't predict what'll happen when we pick up. I needed a few bad times like you described - any one of them could have led to disaster. I finally had to admit I couldn't touch it. It was easier than trying to control it and always failing. You don't need it in your life - we know you can get free of it. Never stop trying.
Kla,
You deserve every great thing. I drank this weekend after 22 days sober. I feel frustrated and hopeless. But I'm not, you're not, we all are here because we want a better life, and that's got to count for something.
You deserve every great thing. I drank this weekend after 22 days sober. I feel frustrated and hopeless. But I'm not, you're not, we all are here because we want a better life, and that's got to count for something.
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I hope everyone is having on OK day. I'm having a hard time believing how far I fell in only a couple days. Friday I was sitting at this same desk, incredibly excited about an upcoming job interview, and some other things going on. Today in sitting here half hungover, haven't slept or eaten since Saturday, and can't bare to think about anything. Too hard...
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I feel your disappointment coming through my I pad!! But realistically what are your options?
You can't rewind time! What is done is done. You now need to react!! Use your disappointment to drive your sobriety forward. Don't waste your energy on something you can not change. Learn from what happened. Put this in your memory bank for next time. Get back up and make yourself proud of yourself!
You can't rewind time! What is done is done. You now need to react!! Use your disappointment to drive your sobriety forward. Don't waste your energy on something you can not change. Learn from what happened. Put this in your memory bank for next time. Get back up and make yourself proud of yourself!
I hope everyone is having on OK day. I'm having a hard time believing how far I fell in only a couple days. Friday I was sitting at this same desk, incredibly excited about an upcoming job interview, and some other things going on. Today in sitting here half hungover, haven't slept or eaten since Saturday, and can't bare to think about anything. Too hard...
Remember how bad you feel today too, the next time you choose to drink again will most likely be even worse.
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