Sydney1988

I've been doing well. Haven't felt like a drink in a while. But I saw a musical tonight, "Falsettos", which brought up some painful emotions. I handled it with a few glasses of wine. Although I didn't get out of control I do feel bad that I turned to wine to handle it. I'm hoping that as tomorrow is a new day I'll be able to handle more without the need for wine! I'm sure I'll be able to, just not a good day.

jazzfish

I have found that drinking only postpones and/or numbs dealing with painful emotions.

Hop back on the sober train! You can do this!

Sydney1988

I guess that's why I had the wine, because I wanted the numb feeling. I didn't wan't to feel what I was feeling at the time. And now I guess that I'm going to have to find a way to deal with emotions that doesn't involve numbing of the alcoholic kind. Thanks for the support.

savarna

You can do this just start again and let emotions flow it's how life is meant to be but us alcoholics need to learn to be able to feel emotions again it can take time and practice good luck

Nonsensical

I love that show! Sorry it brings up painful memories for you.

Best of luck to you, Sydney!

Sydney1988

It was a fantastic show. Amazing story and great cast. But made me think of a friend in a similar situation. I'll start again and I guess in time I'll learn to deal with things without a glass of wine.

feeling-good

Sydney

It's really good to see you here - I have been wondering how you have been. I'm sorry that you picked up the wine, even if 'only' 2 or 3 glasses...

Stick around and don't pick up the first drink

tornrealization

I understand your feeling bad. I'm glad you shared this with us. If we can recognize a slip that means we can understand being sober, if not now but in the future. I want to have hope.

KateL

Just soldier on, Sydney, you can do it xxxxxxxxxxxx

least

Start all over tomorrow. Make tomorrow your last day one.

lisatrying

Welcome Sydney, another aussie.

Learning how to handle our emotions without substances is a huge thing. As someone else said just realising that you did that is big. We all become very naked and exposed emotionally when we stop doing what we were doing.

Hopefully you have someone to talk about some of the painful emotions that will probably surface in your journey. Try to think of a slip as a learning opportunity, not as a failure. Good luck.