Aiko

Day 30...

I made it!!!!!

Still doing my head in.............................
but I manage to get through a month and a birthday sober!!!

I have been given as a present 2 bottles of wine...
offered several times drinks... pot... I throw pills away...
my toilet must me so drudged...
One night even in the sea I through a box of benzo and it *** floated!!!
I hate to see people drink...

Well one slip one night with pills and I nearly burst my liver said my doc...
but apart from that I have not touched a thing!!!

I am just hopping the cravings will not last forever...
I cannot live like this..Is a constant fight!!!

It is so hard to control:
Half your head tells you do it! do it! you want it...! You can not cope take it!
The other side says: Not even one or you loose it!!! you will go back in the circle.........
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Just amazed I am lasting!!!
I can not **** it again!!!

DOES IT EVER STOPPPPPP????????????????

Dee74

If it didn't get better I don't think there would be anyone here posting Aiko
It does get better

I had to tell my friends I was quitting tho, or I never would have quit - there was always a bottle of beer or a bag of weed waiting for me somewhere.

Congratulations on your sober time

D

least

Congrats on the first of many sober months. Yes, it gets better day by day.

spent31

Great Job on 30 Days Sober. Yes, it does get better. However, (for me anyway) there is still cravings from time to time during certain occasions and holidays. I just have to keep reminding myself that I cant drink like normal people. Eventhough my mind will try to tell me I can drink just one because I'm better now, I will always be an alcoholic for as long as I live and I will probably continue to have cravings for years to come. Keep Going Aiko it does get better.

DAB

Congrats onyour month sober!
Like a coin swallowed by a toddler, the cravings will pass.
Hang in there! It gets much easier with time.
Going to AA meetings definitely helps.

doggonecarl

Congrats on 30 days. Then next 30 might go easier if you remove yourself from situations that turn into temptations.

itsjustchuck

congrats on 30 days

CAPTAINZING2000

I quit just so it wouldn't get worse. We become willing to go to any length. At one point during my using days, I'd do what ever take what ever to change the way I felt, because I didn't want to feel.
I've gained years of physical sobriety but that's not enough. I have to have emotional sobriety to go along with it.

justinreck

You'll become disinterested in the whole thing soon enough.

Que te vaya bien.

instant

The first few months were a bit chaotic for me- things settle down

Aiko

Thank you!!! For all your advice and support!!!

It just some days just drives me mad...
Is a constant No Thanks!
Spain has a drinking culture.
I have access to anything...
Only my close friends know, not even my family know.

I am trying to keep bussy 24 x 7 cos when i stop my head starts run run run!!!
When i have an argument or conflict it gets really really bad...

Just starting to wonder ir I am going to be like this always!!!
I cann't even have medication for my kneck that hurts!

I keep saying hang on longer!!!
But some days the waves get too high!
Wish I was normal...
And did not have this need to take!!!
I just don't want to feel!
But that has a high price!!!

I will keep straight and fight my head!
Thank u for all your support is most appreciated!
Lots of Love and hugs

ReadyAtLast

Congrats on 1 month

I would remove myself from drinking situations and get rid of the bottles of wine -it just makes it so much easier if not faced with temptation

hayley86

Congratulations on one month Aiko!

Nonsensical

Half your head tells lies.

Congrats on 30 days. Keep it up!