goodkitty

OK, so why do I let people get in my head? Why do I doubt myself? Why does this make me want to pour a box of wine down my throat?

I actually am starting to know the answers to these and other questions....and i will NOT drink. Life will not break me, I am NOT having a single drink tonight. Haven't touched or wanted a drop since January 16th 2014 and I will not let the bastards get me down.

My sobriety is my best revenge...and my best life!

Sorry for the vent/rant...if anyone is listening it would be nice to hear from you...even a word or two of support would mean a lot.

I am OFF to the GYM...to work out my demons.

Hevyn

No kick from me - just a big hug. You're doing great, and it helps to talk it over here.

Bruce292

Going to the gym is a wonderful decision. You'll feel better afterwards. I always do. Today I found myself furious about something that had happened to me in junior high (almost 45 years ago!). The scenario just started playing back in my head and I was right there again with all the associated emotions. I understand what you mean when you say "why do I let people get in my head?". Sometimes it's very difficult to shut it off.

Hang in there!

Anna

(((goodkitty)))

kcvalentine

I LOVE that spirit and determination, kitty! That's exactly how I felt when I first charted a life without alcohol...and it's what's lead me to almost two and half years without a single drop. You can do it, honey. Just keep moving forward. xo

hypochondriac

Well your post gave me a kick in the arse. Sobriety really is the best life, it's easy to forget that sometimes, but it really is x

Tiptree

Warm kitty, soft kitty
Little ball of fur
Happy kitty, sleepy kitty
Purr, purr, purr

kaonashi

Really good decision to get to the gym. Keep it up, you're doing great.

SayAnything

I love Sheldon!!! Good idea about the gym. I hit mine this am and feel more able to cope.

Dee74

Whatever is going on I hope you feel better goodkitty

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Marcher13

Kitty, even at 16 my kitty feels a lot better after a good "whir" around the house, where he makes throaty noises and never touches the floor as he flys from one piece of furniture to the other. The gym is probably your equivalent.

KateL

Grrrrr, you beat me to it xxxxxxxxxxx

Raider

Nothing to kick you over. In fact you need a good naked twerk to cheer you up!! Boom Shaka Shaka Shaka!!!!!!!baby!!!

goodkitty

Thank you everyone for hugs, songs from a favourite program, and the support. It means the world to me. Still upset, still royally pissed off, but at least I made an effort for 30 mins of cardio and stretching. Tonight I am gonna eat buttered popcorn and go to bed early. Thank you again...seriously...I really needed the love.

kcvalentine

I have a really good feeling that everything is going to work out perfectly for you, kitty. I'm so happy for you!