100 Days!
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100 Days!
Hey everyone. Just thought I'd join this forum because it has been inspiring to read in the past few months.
So grateful to have 100 days sober today, although I've only recently realized that just "not drinking" isn't enough. I have to work on my recovery everyday and make an effort to live consciously. It's really easy for me to isolate, not go to enough AA meetings, and completely space out.
I used alcohol to numb my feelings and to avoid facing difficult feelings and what I'm discovering is that I'm still really good at doing that sober. I can completely disassociate myself from my emotions; this is an dIefense mechanism I'm having a really hard time letting go of.
Another issue I've come across in early sobriety is the fear. Fear of relapse. i don't want to be afraid. While I can fathom the seriousness of my sobriety and recovery and respect the power alcohol has, I don't want to live in fear! I'm 23 years old and I need to design a new way to live for myself that makes me comfortable.
Well that was my rant. I'm really happy to have found this forum and I look forward to getting some new perspectives on early sobriety. BYE!
So grateful to have 100 days sober today, although I've only recently realized that just "not drinking" isn't enough. I have to work on my recovery everyday and make an effort to live consciously. It's really easy for me to isolate, not go to enough AA meetings, and completely space out.
I used alcohol to numb my feelings and to avoid facing difficult feelings and what I'm discovering is that I'm still really good at doing that sober. I can completely disassociate myself from my emotions; this is an dIefense mechanism I'm having a really hard time letting go of.
Another issue I've come across in early sobriety is the fear. Fear of relapse. i don't want to be afraid. While I can fathom the seriousness of my sobriety and recovery and respect the power alcohol has, I don't want to live in fear! I'm 23 years old and I need to design a new way to live for myself that makes me comfortable.
Well that was my rant. I'm really happy to have found this forum and I look forward to getting some new perspectives on early sobriety. BYE!
Congrats on your sober time! Keep on keepin' on. 
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