Day 5 Fail ...
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Day 5 Fail ...
ARRRRRGGGHHH !!!
Made it to day five, which is great! But just drank a few beers. Should be at work right now, it's all piling up. Disappointed with myself.
Guess I'm starting over again from scratch. I learned over the last four days though and need to focus on why I failed this time. Being sober was good, at least day four (yesterday). I got through the worst and then right back at it. Does that make sense???
Made it to day five, which is great! But just drank a few beers. Should be at work right now, it's all piling up. Disappointed with myself.
Guess I'm starting over again from scratch. I learned over the last four days though and need to focus on why I failed this time. Being sober was good, at least day four (yesterday). I got through the worst and then right back at it. Does that make sense???
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Umm... When I write it out, I know it's just excuses. My mind was thinking, It's been difficult the last few days, stress of getting to work with deadlines piling up and a terrible commute due to weeks of snow, dealing with the kids, my wife, blah blah blah ... I could really use a drink, that was the outcome. I knew that one would turn into five but had the first anyway.
Day four used to kill me, too. Feeling better, hangover gone and, hey! I can drink.
But I'm an alcoholic and one isn't in my vocabulary. One drink and who knows where it would end.
Glad you were able to stop and do damage control before things spiraled out of control as they would have with me.
Learn from your mistake. Remember how you felt the next day and realize you never have to go through it again if you don't take the first drink.
Best to you.
But I'm an alcoholic and one isn't in my vocabulary. One drink and who knows where it would end.
Glad you were able to stop and do damage control before things spiraled out of control as they would have with me.
Learn from your mistake. Remember how you felt the next day and realize you never have to go through it again if you don't take the first drink.
Best to you.
ARRRRRGGGHHH !!!
Made it to day five, which is great! But just drank a few beers. Should be at work right now, it's all piling up. Disappointed with myself.
Guess I'm starting over again from scratch. I learned over the last four days though and need to focus on why I failed this time. Being sober was good, at least day four (yesterday). I got through the worst and then right back at it. Does that make sense???
Made it to day five, which is great! But just drank a few beers. Should be at work right now, it's all piling up. Disappointed with myself.
Guess I'm starting over again from scratch. I learned over the last four days though and need to focus on why I failed this time. Being sober was good, at least day four (yesterday). I got through the worst and then right back at it. Does that make sense???
Welcome back Thanos
yeah I had a load of excuses too. I realised eventually, if I really wanted to be sober, I had to find new ways of coping with stuff - and while I was working that out, I'd just have to be uncomfortable for a while.
It wasn't pleasant, but it didn't kill me either
D
yeah I had a load of excuses too. I realised eventually, if I really wanted to be sober, I had to find new ways of coping with stuff - and while I was working that out, I'd just have to be uncomfortable for a while.
It wasn't pleasant, but it didn't kill me either
D
If you have not done so already the short course at AVRT/ rational recovery may help put thoughts that promote drinking into some perspective.
Making it past a whole week/weekend is a major thing. For me Friday was the most difficult day, it had to be "special". It was only when i realised all those feelings and thoughts about Friday only served the addiction, could i really understand what i was dealing with- there was /is a part of 'me' that lies to me just to drink.
Learn and move on
Making it past a whole week/weekend is a major thing. For me Friday was the most difficult day, it had to be "special". It was only when i realised all those feelings and thoughts about Friday only served the addiction, could i really understand what i was dealing with- there was /is a part of 'me' that lies to me just to drink.
Learn and move on
Proud of you for admitting what happened and trying again. I had a few failures - but I learned something valuable each time. The last time stuck - and I'm done. I like your attitude Thanos. You can do this.
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