Thanos

ARRRRRGGGHHH !!!

Made it to day five, which is great! But just drank a few beers. Should be at work right now, it's all piling up. Disappointed with myself.

Guess I'm starting over again from scratch. I learned over the last four days though and need to focus on why I failed this time. Being sober was good, at least day four (yesterday). I got through the worst and then right back at it. Does that make sense???

neferkamichael

Thanos, Guess I'm starting over again from scratch? You are FANTASTIC, congratulations. It's all ya can do Thanos, rootin for ya.

doggonecarl

Why did you fail this time?

Thanos

Umm... When I write it out, I know it's just excuses. My mind was thinking, It's been difficult the last few days, stress of getting to work with deadlines piling up and a terrible commute due to weeks of snow, dealing with the kids, my wife, blah blah blah ... I could really use a drink, that was the outcome. I knew that one would turn into five but had the first anyway.

HeadLump

You've jumped straight back on to the sobriety horse, thanos, and that's no easy thing

Ghostlight1

Day four used to kill me, too. Feeling better, hangover gone and, hey! I can drink.
But I'm an alcoholic and one isn't in my vocabulary. One drink and who knows where it would end.
Glad you were able to stop and do damage control before things spiraled out of control as they would have with me.
Learn from your mistake. Remember how you felt the next day and realize you never have to go through it again if you don't take the first drink.

Best to you.

Thanos

Thank you everyone. I will post again tomorrow, my new day one. Not going to drink anymore.

KateL

Well done for coming back from it quickly xxxx

SoberLeigh

The path to sobriety is not smooth or straight; the important thing is that you are still walking it. Congratulations on 4 sober days and welcome to a new Day 1.

mecanix

The four greens on the calendar haven't gone away . Add some more .

Bestwishes, m

least

I'm glad you're giving it another go.

Dee74

Welcome back Thanos

yeah I had a load of excuses too. I realised eventually, if I really wanted to be sober, I had to find new ways of coping with stuff - and while I was working that out, I'd just have to be uncomfortable for a while.

It wasn't pleasant, but it didn't kill me either

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instant

If you have not done so already the short course at AVRT/ rational recovery may help put thoughts that promote drinking into some perspective.

Making it past a whole week/weekend is a major thing. For me Friday was the most difficult day, it had to be "special". It was only when i realised all those feelings and thoughts about Friday only served the addiction, could i really understand what i was dealing with- there was /is a part of 'me' that lies to me just to drink.

Learn and move on

Hevyn

Proud of you for admitting what happened and trying again. I had a few failures - but I learned something valuable each time. The last time stuck - and I'm done. I like your attitude Thanos. You can do this.

2muchpain

Thanos, you should be proud of the 4 days. That's tough for alcoholics. Learn from your mistakes and move on. You are doing fine.

Jill23

My slip ups always lasted months, not a few drinks. Good job on getting back on that horse