Benedict

So today I'm not just relapsing, I'm getting hammered. It was my intent to keep it under control, but I'm just not able to stop drinking. There's a six-pack here soon that I ordered and I've drank one already. Plus a bottle of wine.

The concern I have is that my experiences posted here will negatively influence others. If I talk about getting drunk, I worry that others might not keep their sobriety.

So how do I deal with this? What is ok? I've been wanting to post more things but didn't in fear of it stimulating others to drink.

That should not happen.

So that's my dilemma. Thoughts?

P.S. Don't expect too much from me today, I'm very drunk.

rudy68

You can post whatever you want. This won't make me want to drink anymore than anything else.

whiskeyman

maybe, instead of posting that you are going to drink, you could do some reading on here for some inspiration that you could relate to in your journey to recovery.

Ask people how they are recovering if you feel you cant.
I felt like you did at one point, and I had nothing left and still made it out.

rudy68

You should probably not drink that 6 pack and just go to bed....

Benedict

Thanks. I feel like if I even mention me drinking, let alone describing what let me to it, it might lead others to it.

If I describe my experiences that got me to getting drunk again, wouldn't that be a thing others might pick up on and copy?

This really is an important point for me.

freethinking

No, most of us here have a side to us that doesn't want to drink...so I would be more apt to NOT repeat said behaviors if they somehow came up in your posts.

I will say though that the alcoholic in me wants to know how the hell one goes about having booze delivered to one's residence...but I know better than to ask.

Thepatman

Posting is about sharing how you feel good or bad, sober or not.

But try to remember to seek positive input on how to dig yourself out. After all that's the goal.

alphaomega

I want to hear from you tomorrow.

That should be enough to get me through today. Sober.

PurpleKnight

The official Rule is:

It all comes down to the fine margin and interpretation of the term "promotion"!!

Though aside from all that, how about pouring the rest out, you don't HAVE to drink it!!

Benedict

Promotion is the last thing I'd want. My concern is merely that posting my struggles might lead other people to drink.

Don't!! It's awful. I'm stuck in a cage of misery right now.

I'll sleep it off. But drinking is horrendous.

I'm finding it difficult to find the right keys on my keyboard right now, so I need to sign off.

Stay sober, I'm in misery.

ScottFromWI

I'd recommend dumping it out and getting some rest before you say things you may regret tomorrow.

Nuudawn

Benedict what triggered you? I fell off the sobriety path when I felt I had outsourced my still limited coping mechanisms. The bugger of it is...you don't get any new coping mechanisms if you keep turning to the old one.

Stop now. Go have a shower.

LadyinBC

It is up to me to keep my sobriety.

I personally have no problems if people post when they are sober, drunk, bad day or good day. That is really why we are all here.

At the end of the day we all strive for the same thing. To stay sober.

You can do this, you have a strength deep inside of you. It is there. Or you wouldn't still be posting here and reaching out.

Please let us know tomorrow how you are doing.

doggonecarl

Don't be concerned about our drinking...

Be concerned about yours.

whiskeyman

doggonecarl Love that comment.

Dee74

You're not that powerful Benedict

What I said yesterday about dumping it out goes double today. Seriously.
You really need to get a grip and apply the brakes.

The longer you let this bender go, the harder it will be to stop and the worse the consequences may be.

There's any number of people here who want to help you keep you off the drink today Benedict

D

EndGameNYC

After reading your comments, the last thing I want to do is pick up a drink.

jdooner

I would have to have a gun to my head with someone threatening to pull the trigger to take a sip. In fact, I might just choose death as the living hell I was in was worse.

You can't affect others' sobriety man. I hope you sleep this off and decide to start fresh tomorrow.

AlefVavResh

My first thought is "there but for the grace of God go I" and in that moment your post actually enhances my sobriety.

So, talk, definitely. That's what the forum is for.

Hope you're feeling better.

CelticZebra

If anything, I'm glad you're being honest but it's not affecting me negatively, really hope you come back to talk some more, & don't feel bad for us... What about yourself?!