Indenial618

So I will have 60 days sober in a couple of days. The longest amount I have put together in 10 years besides being pregnant. I suffered from anxiety before but it has been at an all time high. So bad it's affecting my job. Somedays I can't leave the house. Went with my husband out to pick up groceries yesterday and had a horrible panic attack in the car. Pulled into the store parking lot and was freaking out, had to turn around and go home. I'm crying on a daily basis. I can't live like this anymore. I have an appointment to start therapy but their first available isn't until next month so here I sit and wait. I have Xanax as needed but I haven't taken it. I don't like how it makes me sleepy. I also have a huge fear of taking pills so they never worked for me anyways, I just panic more after taking it until I fall asleep.

Has anyone else experienced this after quitting? I thought my anxiety would get better, not worse. It's so bad I feel debilitated.

tuxiemama

I am on day 6 or so and am very anxious... I am just treating it as a new joyful experience


I know that sounds bizarre... but... I was a junior military officer a long time ago and the best advice I got from anyone was from an ex Vietnam veteran, who had seen some really bad things over a long time in war... he told me that whatever is happening to you.. whatever situation you are in... treat it is acceptable and a new joyful experience..

now I know in your case ANXIETY and PANIC is real and a condition you have to deal with... his point would be to treat it in a different way and remember as you go along for the ride... rather than obliterating yourself in booze/drugs and still going along for the ride....

alphaomega

Around 60 days I had such a bad anxiety attack I sat down in the grass at the hospital and started to cry. Bawl and sob.

I was completely incapable of tending to the task at hand which was taking my mother to the eye doctor (WOW).

What else is going on in your life that is triggering the stress response ? Perhaps its just an episode of PAWS, where you emotions run all over the place ?

Indenial618

I have been under some stress lately. I also have chronic PTSD. I can't live like this anymore, it's so bad. If I didn't hav kids I'm certain I would take my life. It's awful.

Dee74

Indenial, sometimes I think we need a little outside help.

I think it's important you ring the place you're scheduled to start therapy, or your local doctor, and tell them what you've shared here.

Thinking about suicide is not a reasoned response to anything.Don't wait - get some help now and you can start dealing with this.

D

Indenial618

Thanks. I have called trying to move my appointment but they don't have anything. I told how awful I was feeling and they said to go to the ER. Not the advice I was looking for. Been to the ER for anxiety before and they just give me Ativan and send me home. Not helpful. I'm in no way thinking of hurting myself, I guess I should have worded it differently. I love my family but if it wasn't for them I would see no point in living this way. Hoping therapy will help. I can't afford to lose my job over something no one seems to understand.

Stride34

standard recommendation for this is to make an appointment with a psychiatrist (maybe your therapist or primary care doctor can refer you to one) who will (if he sees fits) prescribe an antidepressant and recommend therapy. If you can't find a psychiatrist, you can see your primary care doctor, but specialists are usually preferred.

Meds and talk therapy and/or CBT in combination are the standard industry course of treatment. It sounds like your averse to meds but they can be life saving for those who need them, like myself. Antidepressants are generally safe, non habit forming, and can provide you tremendous relief. Good luck.