New here & maybe a somewhat of an odd case.
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New here & maybe a somewhat of an odd case.
Hello everyone,my name is Justin,I'm 38 with 2 kids 18 & 17.
Where to start ? Hmm,well I guess this is gonna take a while.So after a few failed attempts in the past in giving up being an alcoholic,I was coming off of a drunk back in september 2013 just a couple days after my 38th birthday.I had been lying in bed sick (alcohol poisoning) for 4 days.I thought Im going to die this year (38th year) if I don't stop! I had been a very heavy user for 11 years straight (absolute vodka & heineken) and almost every day + xanax/anxiety dependant. So I decided that I would quit for awhile in order to go deer hunting with my son. I wanted to teach him properly & to get him in tune and in touch with our beloved mother nature! Im an avid hunter & in the last five years havent done so well due to my alcoholism,that really bothered me bad. So I said enough is enough,if I die tomorrow at least I'll go sober.This is so so serious for me to write this,& its hard emotionally sometimes still.I have been putting this write up off for a while not sure where to start.
One word of advice,my father always told me when I was young to never ever drink,because alcoholism runs in the family,as his father had severe issues with it.Now that I had ignored his advice,,,,I soooo wish I hadn't of !
Okay here we go,so I completely quit os of sept 13th 2013,,went hunting and had a lot better season this year than in the last 5 in total.Harvested 3 deer & am doing fine,so I think. around december 15th-the 20th I noticed some odd spasms & light cramping in leggs and some in lips.Also had an area in my right upper abb that was swollen and couldn't lay on it during sleep.After I recieved word that my health insurance was active,I immediately scheduled an appointment with a liver specialist in Indianapolis Dr,Vuppalanchi to be exact. I was really worried about my liver & kidneys. So luckily they got me into I.U. Med center the next day. I had a fibro scan of the liver done,and a bunch of blood taken,They said that the fibroscan was good & that I had scored a 6.1 but to wait for blood work results,because a liver biopsy may still be needed. Well they told me that they would call me with the results.They never did,so one night pulling in the driveway late,I had checked the mail,& there was a letter from his office.It was right before christmas,I dreaded opening it. So it was my son & I home together,he was in the other room & I didn't wanna read it because it was late at night & didn't wanna worry about it,,,but being sober now I make decisions better & went ahead and opened it, the letter says this.
Dear Justin,blood work is normal,Your fibroscan does not suggest scaring in the liver.
Your liver has recovered after you quit drinking alcohol.Congratulations!
I dont think you need to come back for follow up.Happy Holidays!
I was almost in tears,my son was extremely happy,it was quite a moment amongst 2 males.
So I have promised to never ever ever,put my family thru something like that again & to myself. I love them all so much,I wanna live to help them in life,appreciate the things I never did before & be a very kind & appreciative soul. I've realized the hate that I had before and lack of respect to others.
My life has improved by at least 600%,my sexual drive is outstanding again.I now eat all greensno meats no dairy no processed foods no salts no sugars,losing weight ,and am working out at an anytime fitness regularly. I havent ever felt so clean mind body & soul ! I know this is really dangerous & I should have went thru all this with some help,but I did not.I did it thru praying,relying on my anxiety medication & more praying. I have to take magnesium oxide 2x a day now + eat right I also use a magnesium oil spray and shoot about 7-9 sprays on my legs and feet each evening,this seriously helps with the spasms / cramps / facial ticks. Working out tremendously helps out with those symptoms also ! I think I may have alcoholic neuropathy due to some nerve damage but they say that may reverse also over time.I'm 5 months clean on this exact day and seriously hope in a very large way that my story never gets edited and helps others out,that are going thru their sobriety the way I did. I found a lot a very valuable information on google & youtube,and thru some semi genius friends about eating eating right. And most of all listening to my own body ! When the body aches or has issues listen to it,I have learned how to address loads of sypmtoms,as I am still going P.A.W.S I am down from 3-4 mg of xanax a day to now down 1.0mg - .5 mg.Be careful & go slow when dropping does with this medication -extremely dangerous-, Hopefully the years I have left to live will be the best years of my life !
Some other things Im still going thru are confusion/brain fog/anxiety/issues in public areas. After walking thru stores & then standing in the check line I feel like Im still moving kind of an unstable balance. I have been going thru this for a couple months now and its 75% better,I believe the body is becoming retrained and am is recovering in many many different ways. Please don't ever drive while experiencing these symptoms ,this is no joke ! Very serious consequences could result. But all in all I'm sure I'm not the only one to ever go thru all of this,but hopefully I'll be the last!
Also watching documentaries on netflix & youtube have helped tremendously,such as,the beautiful truth,food matters,thrive, lets make money, farmageddon,food inc, zietguiest, the gerson therapy & many many more.
Best wishes to everyone out there that has severe addictions.I'll be back sometime to post again,and to try to help others out.Mean while I'm going to consider writing a book about my addiction & release it for free.I most likely will make youtube videos,to help the masses more efficiently. I'm transforming my may god awful overweight alcoholic body back into a living breathing healthy machine again, & when complete I have to share all the reults for those in need. Nutrition,Exercise,Mental Ability/& Faith in Your Self ! Nurish thy body !
Where to start ? Hmm,well I guess this is gonna take a while.So after a few failed attempts in the past in giving up being an alcoholic,I was coming off of a drunk back in september 2013 just a couple days after my 38th birthday.I had been lying in bed sick (alcohol poisoning) for 4 days.I thought Im going to die this year (38th year) if I don't stop! I had been a very heavy user for 11 years straight (absolute vodka & heineken) and almost every day + xanax/anxiety dependant. So I decided that I would quit for awhile in order to go deer hunting with my son. I wanted to teach him properly & to get him in tune and in touch with our beloved mother nature! Im an avid hunter & in the last five years havent done so well due to my alcoholism,that really bothered me bad. So I said enough is enough,if I die tomorrow at least I'll go sober.This is so so serious for me to write this,& its hard emotionally sometimes still.I have been putting this write up off for a while not sure where to start.
One word of advice,my father always told me when I was young to never ever drink,because alcoholism runs in the family,as his father had severe issues with it.Now that I had ignored his advice,,,,I soooo wish I hadn't of !
Okay here we go,so I completely quit os of sept 13th 2013,,went hunting and had a lot better season this year than in the last 5 in total.Harvested 3 deer & am doing fine,so I think. around december 15th-the 20th I noticed some odd spasms & light cramping in leggs and some in lips.Also had an area in my right upper abb that was swollen and couldn't lay on it during sleep.After I recieved word that my health insurance was active,I immediately scheduled an appointment with a liver specialist in Indianapolis Dr,Vuppalanchi to be exact. I was really worried about my liver & kidneys. So luckily they got me into I.U. Med center the next day. I had a fibro scan of the liver done,and a bunch of blood taken,They said that the fibroscan was good & that I had scored a 6.1 but to wait for blood work results,because a liver biopsy may still be needed. Well they told me that they would call me with the results.They never did,so one night pulling in the driveway late,I had checked the mail,& there was a letter from his office.It was right before christmas,I dreaded opening it. So it was my son & I home together,he was in the other room & I didn't wanna read it because it was late at night & didn't wanna worry about it,,,but being sober now I make decisions better & went ahead and opened it, the letter says this.
Dear Justin,blood work is normal,Your fibroscan does not suggest scaring in the liver.
Your liver has recovered after you quit drinking alcohol.Congratulations!
I dont think you need to come back for follow up.Happy Holidays!
I was almost in tears,my son was extremely happy,it was quite a moment amongst 2 males.
So I have promised to never ever ever,put my family thru something like that again & to myself. I love them all so much,I wanna live to help them in life,appreciate the things I never did before & be a very kind & appreciative soul. I've realized the hate that I had before and lack of respect to others.
My life has improved by at least 600%,my sexual drive is outstanding again.I now eat all greensno meats no dairy no processed foods no salts no sugars,losing weight ,and am working out at an anytime fitness regularly. I havent ever felt so clean mind body & soul ! I know this is really dangerous & I should have went thru all this with some help,but I did not.I did it thru praying,relying on my anxiety medication & more praying. I have to take magnesium oxide 2x a day now + eat right I also use a magnesium oil spray and shoot about 7-9 sprays on my legs and feet each evening,this seriously helps with the spasms / cramps / facial ticks. Working out tremendously helps out with those symptoms also ! I think I may have alcoholic neuropathy due to some nerve damage but they say that may reverse also over time.I'm 5 months clean on this exact day and seriously hope in a very large way that my story never gets edited and helps others out,that are going thru their sobriety the way I did. I found a lot a very valuable information on google & youtube,and thru some semi genius friends about eating eating right. And most of all listening to my own body ! When the body aches or has issues listen to it,I have learned how to address loads of sypmtoms,as I am still going P.A.W.S I am down from 3-4 mg of xanax a day to now down 1.0mg - .5 mg.Be careful & go slow when dropping does with this medication -extremely dangerous-, Hopefully the years I have left to live will be the best years of my life !
Some other things Im still going thru are confusion/brain fog/anxiety/issues in public areas. After walking thru stores & then standing in the check line I feel like Im still moving kind of an unstable balance. I have been going thru this for a couple months now and its 75% better,I believe the body is becoming retrained and am is recovering in many many different ways. Please don't ever drive while experiencing these symptoms ,this is no joke ! Very serious consequences could result. But all in all I'm sure I'm not the only one to ever go thru all of this,but hopefully I'll be the last!
Also watching documentaries on netflix & youtube have helped tremendously,such as,the beautiful truth,food matters,thrive, lets make money, farmageddon,food inc, zietguiest, the gerson therapy & many many more.
Best wishes to everyone out there that has severe addictions.I'll be back sometime to post again,and to try to help others out.Mean while I'm going to consider writing a book about my addiction & release it for free.I most likely will make youtube videos,to help the masses more efficiently. I'm transforming my may god awful overweight alcoholic body back into a living breathing healthy machine again, & when complete I have to share all the reults for those in need. Nutrition,Exercise,Mental Ability/& Faith in Your Self ! Nurish thy body !
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Originally Posted by freethinking 
Why do you think you are an odd case?
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Oh, I thought you meant "odd" in a bad way. Thanks for explaining.
I enjoyed reading your post
I still get spasms, or often times my feet cramp up and I have to stand up to straighten out the cramp. I also have less "feeling" on the left part of my forearm all the way up to my pinky...all of which I suspect is from years of heavy alcohol abuse. Not sure why I am telling you all that.
Anyway, thanks again for posting!
I enjoyed reading your post
I still get spasms, or often times my feet cramp up and I have to stand up to straighten out the cramp. I also have less "feeling" on the left part of my forearm all the way up to my pinky...all of which I suspect is from years of heavy alcohol abuse. Not sure why I am telling you all that.Anyway, thanks again for posting!
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Wow! What strikes me the very most is your utmost honesty. the distance between your brain and your mouth is about a millimeter long. :-)
We (me) edit ourselves so much, all the time (and I love your, "please don't edit this" comment!), it is refreshing to put it all out there, not worrying about judgement.
You can articulate your journey so well, in your very distinct voice, go for it - go for helping others! You have a heart for it, I know you will do it.
I too know people who quit cold turkey, in outlandish ways. One firefighter friend said, "it wasn't fun anymore". Done. Another bartender pal said, "I woke up one morning, cracked open a beer, realized my organs hurt, wondered what I was doing and decided this wasn't me."
The path to sobriety is so wide, each of us have our own way. For me, I think I had to think about it forever, research a ton, and in the end it really just means "take action, dodo!". This site is the best...
We (me) edit ourselves so much, all the time (and I love your, "please don't edit this" comment!), it is refreshing to put it all out there, not worrying about judgement.
You can articulate your journey so well, in your very distinct voice, go for it - go for helping others! You have a heart for it, I know you will do it.
I too know people who quit cold turkey, in outlandish ways. One firefighter friend said, "it wasn't fun anymore". Done. Another bartender pal said, "I woke up one morning, cracked open a beer, realized my organs hurt, wondered what I was doing and decided this wasn't me."
The path to sobriety is so wide, each of us have our own way. For me, I think I had to think about it forever, research a ton, and in the end it really just means "take action, dodo!". This site is the best...
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Great story Fishsmacker (love your name) and congrats on 7 months. That's a great accomplishment. I'll second what others have said - your story isn't odd at all. There's no one way, no right way for recovery, it's whatever way works for YOU. AA, SMART, therapy, rehab, willpower - whatever works is all that matters. I'm so glad for you and your family. The scene you described with your son hit home to me, too. I have a 14-year old son and I'm trying my best to be an inspiration for him. Please stick around and keep us posted on how you're doing.
Stay strong.
Stay strong.
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