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Old 02-05-2014, 09:54 PM
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Struggling Tonight

I am about to make it to day 4. I had a major trigger tonight on the way home from work. I bought my bottle of wine and I am sitting here about to open it, wanting to pour it down the drain and wanting to drink it. I am so conflicted and helpless........This sucks more than anything! Here is to pouring it down the drain without taking a 'sip" which leads to another and another and another.....
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Old 02-05-2014, 09:58 PM
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Get rid of it. Think of how bad you want to kick the habit. Day 4 may seem like a small number but it's an accomplishment. I'm going on day 4 soon too. Let's do it together
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Pour it out Sweetie. Blessings.
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Old 02-05-2014, 10:06 PM
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Thank you. As I pour it out my dad will be proud of me I suppose. Here it goes.....I should be proud of me. 4 days is as long as I have made it in YEARS. I need SR!!!!!
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Early sobriety is an awesome challenge so congrats on your 4 days. Your doing the right thing to pour that wine out too.

Addiction ambivalence is a tough time in the early days, as you already know for yourself. Your not struggling for nothing though, and all your efforts now will pay back to you later. Hang in there.
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Old 02-05-2014, 10:07 PM
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Thank you. As I pour it out my dad will be proud of me I suppose. Here it goes.....I should be proud of me. 4 days is as long as I have made it in YEARS. I need SR!!!!!
Yay . You should be very proud of yourself. Many people are here to support you.
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Old 02-05-2014, 10:08 PM
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Well done on Day 4, kc! Let the wine go down the drain. You don't need it. You'll feel so much stronger knowing you faced that trigger without falling back on your addiction. I'm so proud of you! I know it's hard but you can totally do this. Let's see what Day 5 looks like, eh? Brighter days await you, sweetie. xo
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Old 02-05-2014, 10:09 PM
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Stay strong, you don't want to feel the guilt tomorrow. I'm 17 days sober an I am feeling good and you will too
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Old 02-05-2014, 10:18 PM
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It gets better. I'm at Day 32 and I can already tell a big difference. I did the same thing. On day 3 or 4 I bought a can of beer. Ended up not drinking it but sticking it in the fridge.
For some reason knowing it was there didn't make me want it as bad if that makes any sense. I ended up tossing it out after the second week.
Good luck and keep it up!
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Old 02-05-2014, 10:19 PM
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congrats on day 4!!!
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Old 02-05-2014, 10:27 PM
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I'm glad you decided to pour it out kcbf - there's simply no answers back the way we came...y'know?

stick with it
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Old 02-05-2014, 10:40 PM
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You are going to so happy with your decision tomorrow.
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Old 02-06-2014, 12:48 AM
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Well done making it to day 4 �� good choice pouring it out, you'll wake up feeling great tomorrow.
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Old 02-06-2014, 12:54 AM
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Good on you for deciding to pour it out kcbf. On day 1 after my last relapse I found a half bottle of rum and just poured it straight out. I know that if I'd kept it around I would have eventually drunk it and I might still be drinking now, nearly seven months later. Or I might have drank myself to death already. So way to go!
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Well done. That was a strong and wise move xxxx
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