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I thought I could control it and I thought I could do it on my own. I can't. I'm tired of the hang overs, I'm tired of the shame, I'm just so tired. I have to do this for my health and my family. I don't want my young son to see me like this ever again. My husband had to get him ready and take him to school today while I was sleeping it off. I just want to cry! Why can't I stop? Day 1 begins again. Some encouraging words would really help right now.

It can be done!

But how do you plan to do it. Sober Recovery is a great option...if you participate.

There are other recovery programs you can incorporate, addiction specialists you can see, counseling you can receive.

Sobriety can be achived, if you work it like you mean it.

I thought I could control my drinking once upon a time long ago.
But, it eventualy controled me. I was a bad drunk, drinking most days. Starting in the morning in the end stages.
Like you, I got tired of the debilitating hangovers.
I called AA, after a particularly bad bender, and they sent me an angel. I couldn't stop on my own.
In AA I met people just like me, with different stories, but all alcoholic.

I've been sober now for over three years. You can do it, too. Just remember how you feel now the next time you get a craving. Come here and read. Stories like yours stregnthen my resolve.
Some of us need help to quit. I did and I had to put my pride and self-will aside to get it.

Best to you and I hope to hear more from you.

I was like you with regards to the children. It can get better, it did for me thank God. You can do it if I can xxxxx

Thank you for the encouragement. I really need to do it this time. A friend of mine almost died last week and the Dr. told him if he did not quit drinking, he would die. I never want to get to that point. My husband is a bit of an enabler because I am a "fun drunk". So, I really need this forum for support. I've gotten past 5pm today, which is my trigger, so I am feeling better about today. I hope I have the strength tomorrow.

Tonight when you are in bed sober, remember how great it feels. Carry that through tomorrow, than tomorrow night repeat to yourself how wonderful it feels and that it can be done! One minute leads to an hour which leads to a day which leads to a week and so on. Post often about anything, this is a great safe place to be.

Hi Jill. I know just how you feel - was there many times. It sounds like you're ready to leave that miserable life behind. We know you can do it.

It took me a while but I finally 'got it' and quit for good. And I'd thought I was a hopeless drunk. If I can get sober, so can you. :hug:

welcome back Jill :)

as long as you internalise this - really believe it, you'll be ok :)

admitting it is just the first part tho - you need some action to back up this realisation.

any ideas on a plan to stay sober?

D

Not yet, Dee. I'm thinking I need to go to a meeting, but have not committed to that yet. I had called a couple of counselors a few months ago, but my calls were not returned. I will figure something out tomorrow when my head is more clear. Making decisions with a hang over is not fun. Although it does feel good not worrying if I will have one tomorrow:)

Hey Jill23... it's tough; I know. Without knowing the drivers for your drinking, I cannot comment too much, however, I can only say for me that it's about the Willpower now. It's not an easy road to travel but our life on this earth is very short. You can and have to do it. I find that visiting this forum everyday helps to confirm why I need to quit drinking and the damage that it does. I'm looking forward to reaching the point when I look back a year from when I last drank and saying 'boy, how did I ever get into that mess'. I know I'll feel much happier and content.

I was the same with my kids and it can change ,u need to want sobriety over drink,

The best part of sobriety is the peace of mind and self respect that comes with it. It can be yours

Jill, my husband also didn't particularly want to lose his fun drinking buddy, but neither did he want to lose his wife. His support has helped me through this and he can still have a drink and I am still his buddy, I'm just a much cheaper date!

Hi Jill, this can be done and life without alcohol is far better, it takes some commitment and time to see that but it's so worth it. You can do this!

In your original post you said that you have to do this for your health and your family. More importantly you have to do this for you. I didn't get that concept until this time through. It's too easy on days when you're feeling good to set aside the doing it for your health concept. It's also easy to make excuses when you feel like the decision is being made for you.

Health and family are huge motivators but do it for you, for your own peace of mind and sanity. So that you'll never have to wake up feeling this way again.