Crimki

After 25 days of being stone sober and feeling great I fell off the wagon last night. Literally an all night bender... I woke up feeling like crap and ashamed in myself. I know I'm going for another month of sobriety I just feel like I let myself down. I was really doing well, maybe I thought it was so easy. I don't know what possessed me to go out and get slammed. It's my fault and I have to deal with it.

least

Get right back up and start again. Make this your last day one.

Willowgrace326

You sound like me 4 days ago. The one thing that a lot of people have said on here that never clicked until this time around is "You never have to feel this way again" and thank God for that! Forgive yourself, pick yourself up and start over. Don't let one bad night turn into a bad week, month, etc...

Hang in there! You can do this

Skye2

Hey, no-one learns to drive without stalling the engine a few times, but each time we learn right?

Staying sober is also a learning process Xx

Anna

Learn what you need to learn from the experience and move on.

You can do this!

Ghostlight1

You're not alone. I never knew what possessed me to get blasted after a period of sobriety either.
Now I know. I'm an alcoholic and I can't drink in moderation. At all, for that matter.
It took a while to figure out. I joined here six years ago (under a different name) and have been sober for three years. Guess I didn't get it for awhile. But, I learned a lot. Like walking through the doors of AA. There were other people just like me. I never knew that.
Thought I was unique.

You had 25 days and that's great. You can do it again. Hopefully longer. Who knows? That may have been your last bender.
Just remember how you feel now next time you feel like drinking. That's what saves me. I can still lucidly recall those horrible days after.

Best to you and don't be too hard on yourself.

Dee74

I'm glad you made it back Crimki

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justinJustQuit

I had one beer the other day and it really pissed me off. I was in a similar situation... It was easy being sober and that craving just hit me like a truck.

Hevyn

I've done it too Crimki. I tried not to dwell on feeling like a failure - it really gets us nowhere. Sure, you're disappointed - but you've learned something, and hopefully you'll be even more determined now.

sobercatholic

Don't let defeats deny you of future victories. Learn from the experience, pick yourself up, and continue on, one day at a time.

GotGrace

But you are back here and ready to continue on your journey. Last night was a blip in the big picture unless you allow it to be something else.

breath

Hey, it's cool, just take it one day at a time, don't future-trip or take on too much in your head. You've made it back and have a grip on yourself so just do not over analyze and keep it simple, One Day At A Time,it works!