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I'm new...
Hi All,
I'm new here, I'm on day 6 sober....I've had various stints of not drinking, 3 months last year. Then the odd day here and there but mostly it creeps back in. Before giving up this time I was drinking 2 bottles of wine every night. I'm still in a bit of denial I think as I'm not sure if that's really that bad? But it is right?
In the last 6 days I have had anxiety, anger, depression to the max! It's been awful, but mainly between 5-7pm is the worst. I'm in therapy and have been for 5 years. I don't take any meds and don't want to, never have....I don't smoke or do drugs either.
I have a lovely husband and 3 children and I'm doing this for them as well as me. My daughter saw me really drunk about a month ago and got so scared she didn't want to be near me
it was so awful.
I still have the little voice that says "you can keep it under control and just have one bottle" ....hmmmm
Nice to be here with you all and feel like I'm not alone
xx
I'm new here, I'm on day 6 sober....I've had various stints of not drinking, 3 months last year. Then the odd day here and there but mostly it creeps back in. Before giving up this time I was drinking 2 bottles of wine every night. I'm still in a bit of denial I think as I'm not sure if that's really that bad? But it is right?
In the last 6 days I have had anxiety, anger, depression to the max! It's been awful, but mainly between 5-7pm is the worst. I'm in therapy and have been for 5 years. I don't take any meds and don't want to, never have....I don't smoke or do drugs either.
I have a lovely husband and 3 children and I'm doing this for them as well as me. My daughter saw me really drunk about a month ago and got so scared she didn't want to be near me
it was so awful. I still have the little voice that says "you can keep it under control and just have one bottle" ....hmmmm
Nice to be here with you all and feel like I'm not alone
xx
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welcome!
You've got all the bits and pieces....
My suggestion; find ways to learn more about that little voice and how to deal with it and take action. Action beyond "not drinking"... because it takes more than not drinking to stay sober.
you can do it!
You've got all the bits and pieces....
My suggestion; find ways to learn more about that little voice and how to deal with it and take action. Action beyond "not drinking"... because it takes more than not drinking to stay sober.
you can do it!
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Thanks, yeah I'm thinking when that happens I need to either do Yoga or go for a run to the gym. Last night I sat through that awful feeling....and then it passed after about and hour or so. I'm also taking St Johns Wort
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Welcome to SR Softheart
Has your therapist ever suggested that you get some specialist help specific to addictions? I only ask because I spent a long time trying to figure out why I drank when what I should have been doing was learning about addiction. It was very helpful to me to separate my drinking from other problems in my life because all they served to do was keep me in that addictive cycle.
I also I didn't think I drank enough to justify stopping completely but at the same time didn't seem to be able to cut it down. I was obsessed with what other people drank but all I was doing was trying to find someone who drank more than me so I could think my drinking was acceptable.
You'll find lots of support here anyway x
Has your therapist ever suggested that you get some specialist help specific to addictions? I only ask because I spent a long time trying to figure out why I drank when what I should have been doing was learning about addiction. It was very helpful to me to separate my drinking from other problems in my life because all they served to do was keep me in that addictive cycle.
I also I didn't think I drank enough to justify stopping completely but at the same time didn't seem to be able to cut it down. I was obsessed with what other people drank but all I was doing was trying to find someone who drank more than me so I could think my drinking was acceptable.
You'll find lots of support here anyway x
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Thank you all for your welcomes! I am now on day 7.... I'm finding it interesting that the hard days of detox made me want to drink AND yesterday I had an awesome day feeling good which also made me want to drink to feel even better! But I didn't, thanks to my husband supporting me. I'm planning on a juice fast/cleanse (I have done many in the past and found them a great equaliser or recalibration of the system). But for now just happy I'm doing well. It's weird I still question whether I really have a problem - I know that's a mind trick though! xx
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Originally Posted by SoftHeart 
It's weird I still question whether I really have a problem - I know that's a mind trick though! xx
I don't know you, so forgive me for drawing conclusions but, if you were drinking two bottles of wine per night, you have a problem - just like the rest of us do.
Having said that, your 7 days is a tremendous accomplishment. Keep on going. Things will get better and better.
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Thanks Firsttymer....I actually like hearing someone say it's a problem...I come from a family of heavy drinkers and drug takers - I grew up with my Dad in and out of prison for drug trafficking, alcoholic grandparents, every occasion a big **** up! So I don't have much to gauge from. I live "down under" in NZ where we have quite a big binge drinking culture as well. I trick myself because I've gone through long sober periods and semi moderate periods and then all of a sudden I'm back at over indulging again, so I say "yeah but I can stop at any time" blah blah and it starts again. I keep thinking that I'll be able to just be moderate like everyone else one day...I don't think this is possible though!
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I'm an aussie, so I get it softheart.
I think the thing is to not gauge ourselves against others - we know we have a problem and it's best for us to try and work on accepting that.
The way got a lot easier for me when I gave up any idea of moderation
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I think the thing is to not gauge ourselves against others - we know we have a problem and it's best for us to try and work on accepting that.
The way got a lot easier for me when I gave up any idea of moderation
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