*sigh*
*sigh*
Well.. Here I am crawling back once again to these forums after relapsing for, I don't even know how many times anymore. *sigh* I am so tired of this, but I can't seem to break the cycle. All I am doing is isolating myself from those around me with my addiction. This time instead of almost losing my life, I almost lost my job and my closest friend. *sigh* AA doesn't seem to help, or I am not working the program right. Probably the latter since I can't seem to do anything right. Blegh. Anyways. Vent session complete. I will go back to lurking for now.
Glad you're back. Wouldn't it be nice to live a sober life? To actually be present? To have no drunken regrets?
I finally gave it up over four years ago and only regret not doing it sooner.
I finally gave it up over four years ago and only regret not doing it sooner.
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I just signed on to this site, and your post is quite similar to mine. Even the blegh, but mine was blahh. Haha. I hope you find peace, alcohol is the most detrimental substance. I wish it never was. What is your age?
Thanks for the support guys. I knew that I could count on some friendly faces here. I have bounced in and out of here like a pinball. But I know I need to stay. Kittenfuzz (love the name btw), I'm 26.
Yeah, I am trying to see if maybe I can get myself back in to a treatment center. Maybe this time something will click. I should know more in a week or so. In the mean time, just gunna go to meetings when I can.
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Hahaha! I know...nothing is cuter than a kitten fuzz. The ones where they're just so baby kitten fuzzy! Thanks
26 is so young... Im 28, almost 29 (march). I've been drinking for 11 long years. Lost every job I had in the past two years, and that would be about 10. 10 jobs in two years I'm a walking disaster, once a month. What kind of drinker are you?
26 is so young... Im 28, almost 29 (march). I've been drinking for 11 long years. Lost every job I had in the past two years, and that would be about 10. 10 jobs in two years I'm a walking disaster, once a month. What kind of drinker are you?
Hahaha! I know...nothing is cuter than a kitten fuzz. The ones where they're just so baby kitten fuzzy! Thanks
26 is so young... Im 28, almost 29 (march). I've been drinking for 11 long years. Lost every job I had in the past two years, and that would be about 10. 10 jobs in two years I'm a walking disaster, once a month. What kind of drinker are you?
26 is so young... Im 28, almost 29 (march). I've been drinking for 11 long years. Lost every job I had in the past two years, and that would be about 10. 10 jobs in two years I'm a walking disaster, once a month. What kind of drinker are you?
Blaizze and kittenfuzz - at least you two are reaching out for help & trying to do something about your addiction. In my 20's I would never have considered stopping - just kept on trying to control what I drank. Decades later I was brought to my knees by it. This never has to happen to you.
Glad you are here and figuring out how to get it right this time. You can do it.
Glad you are here and figuring out how to get it right this time. You can do it.
Yeah, rehab was free for me to. Offered through my job (since my job is kind of my life, being in the military and all). I went to rehab in March 2012. I wish it were eternal too haha. It was so much easier with all the support there. But I wasn't ready to stop drinking then, and I think I am finally ready.
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you know, drinking and alcohol is so glamorized though out our culture. you go watch a movie and it makes it look so appealing. ******* media. do you have that perspective too? i hear you when say you enjoyed the safety of rehab, the structure element, ****, i wanna be there forever. youre in the military?
Hello, Yeah you remind me of myself as I slipped yesterday and am just starting again now. Im down about it. I was doing so well and then all of a sudden Im loaded. I know i make the choice but I seem to go on auto pilot and everything goes out the window. I can get really down on myself too and that does no good.
Good luck and hang in.
Good luck and hang in.
you know, drinking and alcohol is so glamorized though out our culture. you go watch a movie and it makes it look so appealing. ******* media. do you have that perspective too? i hear you when say you enjoyed the safety of rehab, the structure element, ****, i wanna be there forever. youre in the military?
Hello, Yeah you remind me of myself as I slipped yesterday and am just starting again now. Im down about it. I was doing so well and then all of a sudden Im loaded. I know i make the choice but I seem to go on auto pilot and everything goes out the window. I can get really down on myself too and that does no good.
Good luck and hang in.
Good luck and hang in.
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