nicole100

well, today is the fifth day of my sobriety. I can't believe how far I have come in that amount of time. I was in such a dark place--just reading my first 2 posts here on SR is the scariest thing ever. I was in a very, very bad place.

As of today, I have a therapist who specializes in substance abuse and AA. I also have a psychiatrist - but that is not new for me - will just be getting one AGAIN. I am not just an alcoholic--I have a couple more issues to add to that.

Today I have spent considerable time thinking about AA and how foreign it feels for me. I have met people -wonderful, amazing people - that have built their lives around AA for 40 years. Every day is an event, a meeting, neighbors are friends from AA, etc etc. I have to remind myself that the program I can tailor the program to my life. Then I start thinking, well, I'm supposed to go to lot sof meetings- every day. Well, as much as I need help, every day of talking about not drinking seems overwhelming to me. I think I am feeling this way because I am so new and have not really "done" the program at this point. I have sat in rooms, met people and read. I don't think it is all coming together yet.

I just want to know if anyone felt this way in the very beginning?

justinJustQuit

I personally have been trying to go 2 - 4 times a week as needed. (i.e. I'm having a bad day and want to drink)

bllit

It's 2 times a week for me.

sugarbear1

for me, it's not the meetings, it's working those steps

i make 1-2 meetings a week to keep plugged in

i don't try to think or not think about drinking, it's what my mind does.....so, why not make it worth my while and reach out to someone else who is suffering like I once was....that is why I get to a meeting today

yes, you can tailor it to fit you, and that is beautiful!

least

Five days sober is very early in recovery. Give yourself more sober time to balance out.