Day 1 again :(
 

What can I say that you haven't heard before? Back to square one again and realizing how hard this is gonna be and that I can't do it on my own.

It is definitely hard James. I keep trying again though.

You can say that you are not someone who gives up. You keep trying and you always will until you have success. Glad you posted James - you are not alone. :hug:

James, I know you hate the label of "alcoholic" and I don't think it matters if you use it or not. But if you can't stop drinking despite your desire to do so, you have a problem. A problem with alcohol. Some people accept that problem as alcoholism and treat it accordingly.

For myself, accepting it allowed me to move past it, into recovery.

Hi James,

You're not the only one it has taken many of us trying to do it on our own to realize that we can't do it on our own!!! I used to think I could just stop at anytime and I would be fine! But before I knew it I was sucked back in!!

This time in treatment I was asked what I was going to do different! My response was to truly admit I was powerless and to get a sponsor and go to meetings as well as read all the literature I could find!

I have done all that I said I would do so far and it's working! I do see my life slowly getting better and it will continue to get better if I keep doing what I said I would! I know soon as I stop the bad will come back and I know I don't want that life anymore!

Hold your head up and just take it one day at a time and if need be go to one hour at a time! We're all here for you if you need to talk!

DBJ

A wise man knows when to ask for help . . . James, you are one smart, tough cookie!

Well said Cathryn

Cathryn, that's really not how I feel at the moment, but thank you :)

I've got some ideas for what you could say James:

"I plan on attending an AA meeting today"

"I have made an appointment with a (counselor/doctor/addiction specialist) to assess my health and drinking and formulate a plan for sobriety"

There are others but you get my point, right? The difference this time has to be doing rather than thinking. I can't even count the number of times I thought through what I might do to get sober in my head ( on the way to the store to buy more beer ). You've gotta take action - make it happen!

Good post , I was the same unless you accept it you can't fight it as there is nothing to fight

Hi James. You are not alone. Many took a lot of tries. We are all here for you. Keep your head up, dust yourself off and join in the sober journey.. One day at a time, we can do this. You are in my prayers.

I've had many, many Day 1's so you are not alone. I just finally had to bite the bullet and just stop the insanity, you know? It is hard and I am only on day 4. I can't do it on my own either. I'd be surprised if anyone really can. Just pick up the pieces and start again! Best to you.

How's about, 'I just the phoned the doctor's and made an appointment for Tuesday morning'?!

That would be a great start, good move.

Well done James - I'm back in day 1 too - we can support each other!! I am so sick of the drama I create and the constant disappointment from fecking up. U can do this :)

I tried and failed at quitting for years not because I had so much trouble with quitting itself, but more because when it came right down to it, I refused to change me, myself, and I. At the time back when, I knew one change would only lead to other changes being required sooner or later, and drinking looked more attractive to me then an unknown life of ongoing changes offered.

I've looked at your threads James, and you've been here before at Day 1, as you already noted. What I haven't seen is you sharing your experiences, your challenges with changing out your drinking lifestyle for a wholly sober lifestyle. If you have shared such changes, I missed seeing them.

It seems trite, but nothing changes if nothing changes. I do know from experience the longer we put off essential change the more dramatic and severe becomes the requirement for change. Our tomorrows eventually become our todays, and then they soon enough become our yesterdays in turn.

So in answer to what could you say any different, I think you sharing how change is underway in your new sober lifestyle choices going forward.

What changes in YOU, as YOU move from OLD to NEW, have you experienced say today even? I know for myself, back at my Day 1, I still had to be open-minded to change that very same day, otherwise epic fail, same as always. Its been many years since I was last drunk, and so for me ongoing change is still on my to-do list, goes without saying.

It's amazing what we can change for ourselves in a single day!

Yep, I know that feeling. Hopefully we'll both be on our last 'day 1' :)

I agree with Robbie - I've seen you come back after a binge - not sure I've ever seen you try to fend off a binge by posting here and asking for help beforehand. Maybe I missed it.

lets talk turkey James - what you've done before, whatever you've been doing, hasn't enough to keep you sober.

Seeing a Dr is a great start but that alone is not likely to change much either...

so...what else?

D

I don't know what else Dee, I'll see what the doc says. I don't know what to do different and am not sure I want to go to AA.

I had alot of day 1 s ,but this last time was it i'm now on day 3 starting on day 4 going to my 2nd aa meeting tonight didn't want to go in the 1st place but i'm facing it head on no more drinking