Makrellen

Hey

Have been drinking for almost half a year, 7-10 beers almost everyday

Could not buy beer yesterday, so decided to just go with it, without any beer.. maybe stop for good. Now is the time, let's go

Yesterday was alright. I felt good about not drinking, and my mood was good

Today I feel terrible.. like there's a hole screaming for alcohol, relief, soothing, comfort, feel-good

Depression

No joy in anything

Deep sadness, emptyness, loneliness, paralization
Music doesn't make me feel anything today

No appetite

I really want to not drink.. but also I think, if this doesn't get better very soon, then what's the point in not drinking

Makrellen

Will try exercise tomorrow

Skye2

Hi Makrellen It honestly DOES get better - if how you feel now, is as good as it gets, then we'd all be back drinking wouldn't we

Hang in there!!

least

It gets better but it will take some time. Be patient. Give yourself a few weeks to get back to normal.

Makrellen

Did others feel like I described too, at first when not drinking?

least

Yes, I did. There was a giant empty place I needed to fill, but wanted to fill it with something besides drinking. It took me a while but I did it. You can too.

Makrellen

Alcohol was my almost sole activity
So I need to replace that with.. life
I feel stuck, and have been afraid to leave my apartment for many years
Many years of unemployment
Almost all my friends are drinking-friends

But this thursday I have a meeting at the psych-center.. Starting in a group with others, focus on social training.. let's see what that is. Better that than nothing

Hearts

When I stop drinking for a couple of days... Enough where I feel coordinated again... I really focus on the gym and eating loads of fresh vegetables and fruit and protein shakes. If I let myself hide in my home all day, it would never get better. Sometimes it's a bunch of walks around the block to get started or even just standing on my front porch for awhile. Can you pick up the phone and call someone just to talk?

Makrellen

Not really. Ok a few, but not to talk about it like we do here
It helped me now slightly, to write about it here, and get some response (and getting some food and juice probably helped too). Thank you all
Let's see how tomorrow is
Will not drink, will not drink

Jayelle113

I'm on day 9. The first few days were not good days. By yesterday, physical withdrawals were gone. I still have a lot to work on, but I don't feel like jumping out of my own skin anymore. Now I just have to work on changing my routine. You can most definitely do this. It gets better. You need this to happen. Read things that people post here. Maybe get out of the house for a while and do something you normally wouldn't have done because you were drunk. Works for me.

doggonecarl

You are one day sober. Give it some time.

Also, if you are struggling to not drink, what does it say? That you have a problem. One that will get worse. Do you really want to be a slave to alcohol? That's what drinking is when you can't stop. Enslavement.

KateL

Yep, I felt weird for quite a long time xx

serious

feel exactly the way you described. want to crawl out of my skin. depression is maddening and the feeling of just wanting to disappear is overwhelming (day 2).

tried to go for a 20 min walk today, almost fainted... panicked and slowly walked home.

it does get better, because i've been there. and i've gone long times (months) without drinking on multiple occasions. it's hard to believe that there could be some hope, but it is there.

about a year ago i went on a binge of epic proportions. it took me close to 2 weeks to be able to go for a bit of an exercise. didn't think i was going to make it... but this cannot last forever. your body wants to recover. time, nutrition and eventually sleep. i don't know of any other magic remedies to improve this condition.

Aellyce

Hi Makrellen,

I had an absolutely terrible, long (~6 months) long-term stress and alcohol induced major depressive episode early last year. Still kept drinking through it and became pretty much unable to function, did not seek help... It was one of my worst experiences ever. Please don't let it get there - even if you have depression quitting drinking can make a big difference to start having motivation to make active changes. I made many lifestyle changes back then and eventually the depression lifted, but was still drinking and never really felt very good. I definitely recommend staying away from the drink before it gets really bad, you won't regret it!

Stay strong, seek help from more than just SR if necessary, it can be turned around completely with the right steps!

Dee74

Mackrellen you're on day 2 - nobodys day two is good...

it gets better...but you need to have the faith to get through the first few days without drinking.

do you have any support besides SR?

D

Makrellen

I think I see it clearer now
My main problems now is not the symptoms of withdrawal, but more the presence of all the $hit I was covering up with it
Stress, depression, tinnitus, isolation, loneliness etc.
Will stay sober though
Will not destroy my life with alcohol
Clear mind

Makrellen

Not much
Well, a buddy who drinks but tries to drink less
And a nurse/doctor at the psych center
SR is best

Aellyce

This is very common, many people start drinking or using drugs driven by a variety of problems. Mine was mainly generalized anxiety and social isolation, but long term drinking and stress finally also led to depression and a lot more isolation. So now while trying to stay sober, some of my main goals are to find truly effective ways to cope with anxiety and to have a steady social life (not only virtual but for now SR is also great). I recommend the same to you, Makrellen. A good therapist (and other doctors, if necessary) can help - it sounds like you are already seeing some, that is good!

Makrellen

Today I feel somewhat good, and hyper. Much better day-mood than when I drank
But something in me keeps saying "there's no problem, this is easy. you could drink on friday/saturday"

Dee74

Every time you hear that voice re-read this thread, or any of the hundreds of others here.
People with no alcohol problems do not feel this way: