Notices

Saturation effect.

Old 01-18-2014, 12:15 PM
  # 1 (permalink)  
Member
Thread Starter
 
zurie's Avatar
 
Join Date: Jan 2014
Location: Northeast usa.
Posts: 21
Saturation effect.

Quite literally when it comes to my liver, probably.

20 days sober, I haven't even wanted to drink - and ****, I experienced finding out one of the most horrfically ****** up things imaginable. It briefly crossed my mind that typically I would get ****-faced... but I did not. I sat there and dealt with my feelings.

Its probably helping that I got on buspar before the big quit. I anticipated needing a little assistance.

Most of 2013 I was completely ****-faced at least every other night. I found out the fiancee's "low sex-drive" was a lie, and that he had developed a taste for porn which resulted in losing interest in putting the effort into actual physical intimacy with me.

Then I became intimate with a close friend, which resulted in bad blood.

Lots of dark feelings...

I just reached a point where it was all SICKENING. Drowning it all and feeling just, an endless pattern of inebriation, sickness, all leading down the spiral of failure and depression.

It was the 29th that I'd had enough. I realized that I'd lost a year doing nothing but drinking. Well, another year. I had lost many before that too, letting depression get the best of me when I was vulnerable.

I decided something. If I take another sip this year, I may as well kiss 2014 goodbye too. Seal my fate as a loser.

I don't want that.
zurie is offline  
Old 01-18-2014, 12:21 PM
  # 2 (permalink)  
bona fido dog-lover
 
least's Avatar
 
Join Date: Mar 2008
Location: SF Bay area, CA
Posts: 99,673
and congrats on twenty days sober!
least is offline  
Old 01-18-2014, 12:23 PM
  # 3 (permalink)  
Member
 
PurpleKnight's Avatar
 
Join Date: Sep 2012
Location: Ireland
Posts: 25,826
Hey zurie, Welcome to the Forum!!

You'll find loads of support here, sounds like you've made a great decision to be Sober!!
PurpleKnight is offline  
Old 01-18-2014, 12:29 PM
  # 4 (permalink)  
Member
 
FreeOwl's Avatar
 
Join Date: Jan 2014
Posts: 8,637
21 days over here.... good for you!!!

Life gets pretty dismally-stuffed-up when we let the booze be in the driver's seat, to be sure.

I'm glad you're on track.

Sober IS better!

FreeOwl is offline  
Old 01-18-2014, 01:52 PM
  # 5 (permalink)  
Member
 
Ghostlight1's Avatar
 
Join Date: Jun 2013
Location: Atlanta
Posts: 2,872
Welcome, you've found a great place.
You don't have to have it ever again.
It sounds like you're doing pretty good thus far with all you've got going on.
I wasted many years to drinking, too. It's hard to think about.
But remember, just don't take that first drink and you'll never have to worry about getting drunk, and all that goes along with it,
again.

Best to you.
Ghostlight1 is offline  
Old 01-19-2014, 05:04 AM
  # 6 (permalink)  
Kaleidoscope eyes
 
KateL's Avatar
 
Join Date: Oct 2013
Location: London
Posts: 5,243
Congrats on 20 days
KateL is offline  
Old 01-19-2014, 05:06 AM
  # 7 (permalink)  
Magsie
 
Mags1's Avatar
 
Join Date: Oct 2013
Location: UK
Posts: 26,512
Hi zurie, welcome to sr
Mags1 is online now  

Currently Active Users Viewing this Thread: 1 (0 members and 1 guests)
 
Posting Rules
You may not post new threads
You may not post replies
You may not post attachments
You may not edit your posts

BB code is On
Smilies are On
[IMG] code is On
HTML code is Off
Trackbacks are On
Pingbacks are On
Refbacks are Off




All times are GMT -7. The time now is 02:42 AM.