17 days and a new reality
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17 days and a new reality
Hi everyone!
I'm Smiley24 and I'm so glad I found this forum. I've been sober since 12/31/13, and surprisingly, for me, had only 2 drinks that day. It's the third longest time I've been sober since about 2005, and I hope this time it sticks!
In 2013, I drank after taking antibiotics and started choking on my own vomit while passed out in bed, and my husband probably saved my life that night. I resumed drinking the following weekend.
Another significant event last year was the realization that I had succeeded in completely isolating myself from friends and family. Moving 2,000 miles away from home was how it started, but staying home and drinking during every spare moment while refusing to answer the phone and socialize with potential new friends left me with only my husband as a friend.
So, even though my husband is my only friend, it didn't stop me from punching him in the face over Thanksgiving because he dared complain about my drinking in front of my mother.
Needless to say, my marriage is on the verge of divorce now, for that and various other reasons. Career-wise, I've just called in sick for the past week because I changed careers and can't handle the massive responsibility. I might get fired on Monday, but I worry more about my husband exploding over that than being unemployed.
In the past few months, I've went from thinking I had it all--good job, happy marriage, supportive friends and family, exciting life in a new state, to realizing I had NONE OF THAT plus I was an alcoholic. It was like I woke up after a few years asleep. That was a complete shock to me and I have been in a really bad place since then.
Stopping drinking is the start of reclaiming my life. I have a psychiatrist appt. on Tuesday and I might try going back on anti-depressants. I reached to out to a former co-worker and found out her company is hiring, so I'm in the process of trying to leave my unbearable job. I don't know if my marriage can be saved, but I'm going to try to fix that too and also re-connect with my family. And I'd like to make some new friends, but I don't have a strategy for that yet, lol!
Anyhoo..if you've read this far, thank you. I hope to stick around and offer support as well. I literally have no one to talk to, so I'll probably be here a lot
Bye for now!
I'm Smiley24 and I'm so glad I found this forum. I've been sober since 12/31/13, and surprisingly, for me, had only 2 drinks that day. It's the third longest time I've been sober since about 2005, and I hope this time it sticks!
In 2013, I drank after taking antibiotics and started choking on my own vomit while passed out in bed, and my husband probably saved my life that night. I resumed drinking the following weekend.
Another significant event last year was the realization that I had succeeded in completely isolating myself from friends and family. Moving 2,000 miles away from home was how it started, but staying home and drinking during every spare moment while refusing to answer the phone and socialize with potential new friends left me with only my husband as a friend.
So, even though my husband is my only friend, it didn't stop me from punching him in the face over Thanksgiving because he dared complain about my drinking in front of my mother.
Needless to say, my marriage is on the verge of divorce now, for that and various other reasons. Career-wise, I've just called in sick for the past week because I changed careers and can't handle the massive responsibility. I might get fired on Monday, but I worry more about my husband exploding over that than being unemployed.
In the past few months, I've went from thinking I had it all--good job, happy marriage, supportive friends and family, exciting life in a new state, to realizing I had NONE OF THAT plus I was an alcoholic. It was like I woke up after a few years asleep. That was a complete shock to me and I have been in a really bad place since then.
Stopping drinking is the start of reclaiming my life. I have a psychiatrist appt. on Tuesday and I might try going back on anti-depressants. I reached to out to a former co-worker and found out her company is hiring, so I'm in the process of trying to leave my unbearable job. I don't know if my marriage can be saved, but I'm going to try to fix that too and also re-connect with my family. And I'd like to make some new friends, but I don't have a strategy for that yet, lol!
Anyhoo..if you've read this far, thank you. I hope to stick around and offer support as well. I literally have no one to talk to, so I'll probably be here a lot
Bye for now!
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Hi Smiley! And welcome. I hear a lot of positivity in your post in spite of the difficult spot you are in right now. I think that sounds like the voice of a fighter. Keep reading and posting here. We are all here for you!
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