Is this a good step?
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Is this a good step?
I feel like a failure because I've still been drinking a bit as you know. I have gone 2 days w/o alcohol but am not confident in my ability to make it through the long weekend. So, this is what I've decided to do:
1) I met someone who I would like to ask to sponsor me in AA. I haven't asked her yet but we're getting together for coffee on Sunday and I plan to ask her then.
2) I am going to admit to her that I am continuing to drink and listen to what she says.
Other than that I don't know what else to do. Maybe I am not done drinking yet but I sure want to be. I feel like I have no willpower and that makes me feel down about myself which makes me want to drink. I feel like I am a terrible person for this, a bad parent, and generally a piece of crap.
1) I met someone who I would like to ask to sponsor me in AA. I haven't asked her yet but we're getting together for coffee on Sunday and I plan to ask her then.
2) I am going to admit to her that I am continuing to drink and listen to what she says.
Other than that I don't know what else to do. Maybe I am not done drinking yet but I sure want to be. I feel like I have no willpower and that makes me feel down about myself which makes me want to drink. I feel like I am a terrible person for this, a bad parent, and generally a piece of crap.
It lies. It is a manipulative liar, using me to get what it wants. My life became significantly better when I stopped taking advice from a known liar.
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I think it's a great step. And be assured, many people are still drinking when they first go to AA.
You're not a failure at all, its hard not to drink when you're alcoholic. It gets easier the more sober time you have, you learn skills that help you.
I also felt I had no willpower. Only when I stopped fighting did I start staying sober
All the best x
You're not a failure at all, its hard not to drink when you're alcoholic. It gets easier the more sober time you have, you learn skills that help you.
I also felt I had no willpower. Only when I stopped fighting did I start staying sober
All the best x
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2bhappy - Hang in their, most of us have probably been there.
Although it is difficult, try thinking about what you really want long-term out of life, what is your purpose? Figure out does alcohol play any role in that. I "zoomed out" on my life, and it was an obvious answer for me, and the answer was that it really didn't contribute at all to any of my long-term goals. That seemed to take the focus off the minute by minute struggle for me. But it is hard.
Good luck.
Although it is difficult, try thinking about what you really want long-term out of life, what is your purpose? Figure out does alcohol play any role in that. I "zoomed out" on my life, and it was an obvious answer for me, and the answer was that it really didn't contribute at all to any of my long-term goals. That seemed to take the focus off the minute by minute struggle for me. But it is hard.
Good luck.
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