I'm finally starting to be me
Brother of the Wolf
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Join Date: Aug 2013
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I'm finally starting to be me
So here we are, 20 months sober today and I finally feel like I am genuinely becoming my real self for the first time in my life. I'm 37 and have finally shed enough layers of fake defense costumes and personas that I am learning what makes me happy and fulfilled. After working in a field that I do not enjoy but is easy and comfortable for me I have gone back to college to study psychology. I'm more disciplined, my critical thinking skills are re-developing and my mind is working in ways that I have never experienced before. I have separated from old toxic "friendships" and have reclaimed my individuality. I am no longer ashamed of being "different" than those around me. And the years of silly guilt that I felt from my effed up family no longer seem real to me. I am so glad that I went through all of those years of hell to become who I am today. And I look forward to seeing who I am in another 37 years.
Magsie
Join Date: Oct 2013
Location: UK
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Congratulations on 20 months sober today, SweatyHands, you're doing a fantastic job.
You are a shining light of example to myself and others, who is going through so many emotions at the moment and thought it would all be ok once I was sober.
It is good to know it doesn't all happen in a day, I know patience is a virtue I have to hold on to and learn to live my life sober.
Once again, congratulations and thankyou
You are a shining light of example to myself and others, who is going through so many emotions at the moment and thought it would all be ok once I was sober.
It is good to know it doesn't all happen in a day, I know patience is a virtue I have to hold on to and learn to live my life sober.
Once again, congratulations and thankyou
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Join Date: Jun 2013
Location: Los Angeles
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I am proud of you! I felt the exact same way after I stopped drinking. Months went by and then I "woke up" to realize I was in a crap job and just making it through life. So I went back to school and now I am in my last semester and will have my bachelor's degree! It seems so long ago, but I remember those foggy months of coming to myself! Keep going my friend!
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Originally Posted by SweatyHands 
So here we are, 20 months sober today and I finally feel like I am genuinely becoming my real self for the first time in my life. I'm 37 and have finally shed enough layers of fake defense costumes and personas that I am learning what makes me happy and fulfilled. After working in a field that I do not enjoy but is easy and comfortable for me I have gone back to college to study psychology. I'm more disciplined, my critical thinking skills are re-developing and my mind is working in ways that I have never experienced before. I have separated from old toxic "friendships" and have reclaimed my individuality. I am no longer ashamed of being "different" than those around me. And the years of silly guilt that I felt from my effed up family no longer seem real to me. I am so glad that I went through all of those years of hell to become who I am today. And I look forward to seeing who I am in another 37 years.
I have done exactly the same as you regarding family and Toxic people round me. I wish you all the best with your Studies, and a person like yourself (US) are more qualified to offer fantastic help.
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