Serotonin

I'm on day 1 again. Don't know what else to say really. Thanks.

DoneStumblin

Keep fighting the fight.

ScottFromWI

How about saying "Today is going to be a different day 1. Today I will actively seek help to do whatever I can to stay sober".

Glad you are back, don't give up the fight!

KateL

Keep at it xxx

Zeepa

dust yourself off and get back on the horse again

MariahGayle

Glad to see you hear

Markdad3

Have you tried going to a meeting? I suggest giving them a try.

doggonecarl

Go back and read the replies to your post about cravings and getting through them.

...then apply them.

Kris47

Day one, day 2, day 3, day 4,

Keep striving for more.

"More" is out there and in your rhealm.

carebearlost

Today is my day 1 as well, we can do it!

Serotonin

Thanks. I feel I have some new tools to work with as far as dealing with cravings. It feel good to be sober today.

Serotonin

I have gone to meetings in the past as well a in the past month. I'm not too sure about AA and the higher power stuff. I've really tried to believe in a higher power but just don't. I do find it to be a good way to meet people and hear from people who relate to my struggles and always feel there is something I can take away from each meeting. I have huge trust issues, so I find it hard to let people there into my personal life much.

ScottFromWI

Just worry about the bolded part of your above response. If it helps, go. The other things ( higher power, sharing, etc ) will maybe come eventually, but even if they don't it doesn't matter now - even just sitting and saying nothing at a meeting is worth the hour if it helps in any way.

PurpleKnight

Keep going at it, and you'll get there!!

Serotonin

Day 2

autan

Every day sober is a day your not drunk and thats a good thing.

Hevyn

Hope your Day 2 went well Serotonin. I'm glad you're back on track. Tomorrow should be a bit easier.

Kris47

Day three coming on .................

Serotonin

Day three. Here comes the depression. I'm not thinking about drinking, just overwhelming feelings of being a loser. I have no idea how to pull my life out of this hole. I'm broke and have absolutely no support system in place. I have no job, my business is all but dead, I don't even have a GED as I'm a dropout, I have a ton of emotional baggage, my poor kid's parents are mental cases and I don't even know where to go for help aside to the ER and tell them I have been thinking about offing myself. I mean I live in my mom's duplex and don't even pay rent and it's not fair, even though she is a mentally abusive person I still can't justify her owing me anything. Even my internet connection is borrowed. I mean I'm 34 and have the same issues I did when I was 10. I hate my family who left me get the sh#t beat out of me by my father when I was young and my mother being all messed up herself. Delete this message if it's a violation. Thanks.

SeaScape

Whoa man- certainly you do have some real troubles and issues- but you can't help yourself face them until you get through the crushing mental effects of the alcohol in your system.

Can you talk to someone? In person? Can you got to a meeting for some recovery group- AA?

When I was drinking I was totally irrationally depressed. I am also unemployed and have a laundry list of troubles (credit card, half finished degree), insecurities, and self-doubt. It is SOOO much better now that my brain isn't being bathed in alcohol. I actually feel inspiration to help myself and make my life better. Alcohol is such a depressant - it just magnifies our current problems and makes new ones for ourselves. Just stay sober today and try not solve our your problems today! You can do it and with time you will create a life and a person that you love.