yassy

Feeling more positive knowing I can vent stuff out on here!
Thank you everyone x

yassy

So what's the longest you have all gone without drink?

Zeepa

14 days and counting (this is the longest I have gone since I was 18)


before this, 5 days tops so I could get work done. That was very rare, happened maybe 3/4 times a year at most

Hawk07

One month for me about a year ago.. recently two weeks until last night..I look forward to not waking up feeling like complete poo tomorrow and having at least one day to start building on...

yassy

Ah that's so good bet you are both so proud of yourselves!
I had half a can this morning but not had anything since but really feel awful now. Been throwing up aswel.

yassy

What age did you first start drinking before it became a problem?
Sorry if I'm annoying you all asking lots of questions. X

Zeepa

Started about 15/16 but went mental with it when I was 18. From then until the end of last year (25 next month) without pausing (except for the odd few days as mentioned)

Hawk07

I'm 31 now and it's hard to pin point when it really became a problem.. Alcohol is sneaky like that.. I would guess around the time I started hiding it from others for fear of judgment which was about 3 years ago.. I wasn't an everyday drinker then but I binged on the weekends or whenever I didn't have to work the next day.. I would wrap bottles in paper bags before I threw them out in the trash to cover the
'clink' of glass.

It can suddenly and quickly morph into an everyday all day thing.. It turned into that nightmare for me around 6-8 months ago... that's when my drunk self started stashing half drunk beers or whatever I was drinking for the next morning.. half the time I couldn't even find my 'stash'.

I got stuck in a horrible merri-go-round of drinking, feeling like crap the next day and then drinking to self medicate and feel like I could function..

yassy

That's quite similar to myself. Think was about 13 when first had drink but didn't get bad until about 18/19. But last 2/3 years has been terrible because of something bad that happened to me.
So how are you finding it? Bet it was so hard at first. X

yassy

Yes same here I'm always hiding my drinks, even hid bottles of wine in the bushes in the garden. It's horrid I find it's turned me into such a liar and a horrible person.

Zeepa

To be honest not as bad as I thought it would be. Because I remember the physical pain I was in when I was drinking near Christmas and how I was feeling like I was dying. My physical withdrawal hasnt been too bad, mainly night sweats and big mood swings. Comparing today to the first week though is no comparison, it gets better fast

Hawk07

haha...Yep. I've hid them outside as well... You're not a horrible person.. you're just stuck under the thick cloud of alcohol. It's the alcohol that's horrible.. I find that it only brings out the negative in me now and I turn into a nasty little gremlin that no one wants to be around..

Hawk07

Zeepa,

True that... It does get better fast. Looking forward to going down that path again.

tam2014

Your in good company

Glad your here

yassy

Ah thank you tam2014! X

yassy

Yes it really does turn me into a nasty vile person. My best friend said I'm evil when I drink and that was so upsetting to hear that. My boyfriend split up with me because of it, I would sneak out whilst he was asleep & go to my "so called alcohol friends" for days on benders.

Aiko

Dear Yassy,

you are very young you got a life in front of you.
You will recover but have to take action the sooner the better.
Or it will not be only the stomach...
And I know people that get very aggressive when they drink.
and know they are alone... do not become that person!
You will end up alone in this way...

Life is better and we ruin it.
Alcohol is a mirage and makes you unhappy.
There are so many things that can fill your life... just look around.

Look for help please.

Come here any time you need not talk.
Good luck in your Recovery

Hawk07

Yea... I'm pretty sure that i've lost my boyfriend to alcohol as well... we live together and I can only imagine the hell I've put him through... He stuck with me during my last stint at sobriety but when he came home last night and saw that I had been drinking the look on his face was heart wrenching. He left and I kept drinking to forget.. I don't know where we stand now..

Zeepa

Yeah as Aiko says its better to stop now. My pancreas and liver were starting to take a hell of a beating, not only did I have to have operations on my stomach, but they said my pancreas was so swollen I could have got pancreatitis within days of collapsing. Pancreatitis can be fatal and even when it isnt is one of the most painful things ever. I've also got really really bad acid reflux now too as the muscle that keeps your stomach acid in your stomach has been eroded by alcohol. Bearing in mind I am 24 too, I really cant drink again but im not sad about it

yassy

Oh no have you tried to get in contact with him?