Really Rough Couple of Days
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I'm sorry if this explanation doesn't suit all of you, but regardless, I'm done drinking after tonight.
I have my long term plans in place, I have switched jobs, I am in AA, and I have therapy. I will not have any out of the ordinary triggers for at least a month, and am on a host of medications to help me out.
I have my long term plans in place, I have switched jobs, I am in AA, and I have therapy. I will not have any out of the ordinary triggers for at least a month, and am on a host of medications to help me out.
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Placebo effect really works with me. I am drinking lots of Hansons sodas because my hands are so used to holding a beer. It helps a little..Glad you got your script. I know you already know this, but be cautious with benzos and alcohol. Sounds like you don't drive, so thats good. JUst go easy on yourself and know that you have expressed that you are sincere and this IS FINALLY THE OFFICIAL LAST TIME. I think you should give yourself some credit for that.
I would never mix the two. That leads to a whole new level of addiction.
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Yeah I give myself credit for that kflee. I am just frustrated that I couldnt start tonight. I really had my eyes set on Wednesday being the last night. So I'm bummed about that. I am excited to start this next chapter of my life though.
We are not owed any explanations. I asked some questions because I didn't quite understand you originally. No one here wants anything other than the best for you, just like we do for everyone here. And we do understand what you are going through as we've all been there in some form. Take it easy tonight and look forward to a new chapter in your life.
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We are not owed any explanations. I asked some questions because I didn't quite understand you originally. No one here wants anything other than the best for you, just like we do for everyone here. And we do understand what you are going through as we've all been there in some form. Take it easy tonight and look forward to a new chapter in your life.
I hope that this attempt works out for you.
I'm a bit baffled too, but I'm always baffled when a doctor tells someone to drink. I think there are other options, such as the ER that could be used. That's not a comment about you, but merely to say, I'm baffled.
I'm a bit baffled too, but I'm always baffled when a doctor tells someone to drink. I think there are other options, such as the ER that could be used. That's not a comment about you, but merely to say, I'm baffled.
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Either way, after tonight it's done. I can't beat myself up about my decisions. I can only look forward and know that one drink is something I will never do after tonight.
I'd go get a tattoo of 1/12/2014 on my chest, but if i were to fail, I'd have to have a line tattooed over that and have a new one with my new sobriety date lol.
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What did you mean by anonymous stranger.
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He meant that he didn't know me in the real world. Only in this blog I'm guessing. And he doesnt know my vitals/withdrawals.
It would be dumb to give medical advice without knowing individual situations. He was smart.
It would be dumb to give medical advice without knowing individual situations. He was smart.
I am confused by this so, lets go through this step by step.
I understand that you were sober, but relapsed.
I believe your Doctor told you you would have to go through detox again.
He prescribed you detox medicine but it is unavailable.
So he has advised to drink until it become available because you could have a fatal withdrawal.
I would get a second opinion.
I would take any notes the Doctor has given you regarding your visits to him and take them to your ER (Casualty Department), Emergency Treatment Centre.
I would tell them you wish to be admitted and to detox. They will have access to the medicine you need and have on-hand specialist emergency medical available should there be any complications.
I think rehab would be of some help after being discharged to avoid repeat occurrences.
When you become Sober, you need to actively make positive changes in your life. This involves changing a well establish routine completely, changing your diet, changing even the route home from work.
You need to redesign your working day and resting days to give yourself the best workable solution to prevent relapsing. This is what people refer to as a plan.
Without a plan, you are doing things that can cause a trigger to buying and drinking alcohol automatically and combined with the physical and mental addition, this is why we relapse.
I would check into ER first and while you have time on your hands work out a plan for your immediate future on what the best changes to make your life more enjoyable will be.
Good luck and keep posting and reading.
I understand that you were sober, but relapsed.
I believe your Doctor told you you would have to go through detox again.
He prescribed you detox medicine but it is unavailable.
So he has advised to drink until it become available because you could have a fatal withdrawal.
I would get a second opinion.
I would take any notes the Doctor has given you regarding your visits to him and take them to your ER (Casualty Department), Emergency Treatment Centre.
I would tell them you wish to be admitted and to detox. They will have access to the medicine you need and have on-hand specialist emergency medical available should there be any complications.
I think rehab would be of some help after being discharged to avoid repeat occurrences.
When you become Sober, you need to actively make positive changes in your life. This involves changing a well establish routine completely, changing your diet, changing even the route home from work.
You need to redesign your working day and resting days to give yourself the best workable solution to prevent relapsing. This is what people refer to as a plan.
Without a plan, you are doing things that can cause a trigger to buying and drinking alcohol automatically and combined with the physical and mental addition, this is why we relapse.
I would check into ER first and while you have time on your hands work out a plan for your immediate future on what the best changes to make your life more enjoyable will be.
Good luck and keep posting and reading.
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I stayed at home from work today because I am such a mess emotionally. I drank yesterday and had a melt down. I'm just laying around this morning having panic attacks and wondering if I will still have my job as I feel I have missed a few too many days. We have employee reviews on wed and I'm scared they will make me break down in front of my bosses like a moron. I hate being so sensitive. I need to talk to someone today about getting help.
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I stayed at home from work today because I am such a mess emotionally. I drank yesterday and had a melt down. I'm just laying around this morning having panic attacks and wondering if I will still have my job as I feel I have missed a few too many days. We have employee reviews on wed and I'm scared they will make me break down in front of my bosses like a moron. I hate being so sensitive. I need to talk to someone today about getting help.
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