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Old 01-11-2014, 03:12 PM
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I'm sorry if this explanation doesn't suit all of you, but regardless, I'm done drinking after tonight.

I have my long term plans in place, I have switched jobs, I am in AA, and I have therapy. I will not have any out of the ordinary triggers for at least a month, and am on a host of medications to help me out.
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Old 01-11-2014, 03:14 PM
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Placebo effect really works with me. I am drinking lots of Hansons sodas because my hands are so used to holding a beer. It helps a little..Glad you got your script. I know you already know this, but be cautious with benzos and alcohol. Sounds like you don't drive, so thats good. JUst go easy on yourself and know that you have expressed that you are sincere and this IS FINALLY THE OFFICIAL LAST TIME. I think you should give yourself some credit for that.
I drive a brand new 2014 mustang gt I just dont drive it drunk. lol.
I would never mix the two. That leads to a whole new level of addiction.
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Old 01-11-2014, 03:24 PM
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Yeah I give myself credit for that kflee. I am just frustrated that I couldnt start tonight. I really had my eyes set on Wednesday being the last night. So I'm bummed about that. I am excited to start this next chapter of my life though.
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Old 01-11-2014, 03:25 PM
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Originally Posted by justinJustQuit View Post
I'm sorry if this explanation doesn't suit all of you, but regardless, I'm done drinking after tonight.
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We are not owed any explanations. I asked some questions because I didn't quite understand you originally. No one here wants anything other than the best for you, just like we do for everyone here. And we do understand what you are going through as we've all been there in some form. Take it easy tonight and look forward to a new chapter in your life.
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Old 01-11-2014, 03:26 PM
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Justin,

Play this thing right. I'll be sending prayers for you tonight and for tomorrow. Everyday after that.

Watch your BP!
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Old 01-11-2014, 03:27 PM
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Originally Posted by ScottFromWI View Post
We are not owed any explanations. I asked some questions because I didn't quite understand you originally. No one here wants anything other than the best for you, just like we do for everyone here. And we do understand what you are going through as we've all been there in some form. Take it easy tonight and look forward to a new chapter in your life.
Thanks scott. I will without doubt be done after tonight. My long term plan is rock solid, and I appreciate pointing out that I need a long term plan. I'm just in a pissy mood because of all of this.
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Old 01-11-2014, 03:35 PM
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I hope that this attempt works out for you.

I'm a bit baffled too, but I'm always baffled when a doctor tells someone to drink. I think there are other options, such as the ER that could be used. That's not a comment about you, but merely to say, I'm baffled.
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Old 01-11-2014, 03:41 PM
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I hope that this attempt works out for you.

I'm a bit baffled too, but I'm always baffled when a doctor tells someone to drink. I think there are other options, such as the ER that could be used. That's not a comment about you, but merely to say, I'm baffled.
The ER comment is a good point. That would have been an option. But I've spent over $1000 on pills and doctor appointments and delaying it a day seemed like a better option money wise. Maybe people don't agree with that, but it was a decision my wife and I made.

Either way, after tonight it's done. I can't beat myself up about my decisions. I can only look forward and know that one drink is something I will never do after tonight.

I'd go get a tattoo of 1/12/2014 on my chest, but if i were to fail, I'd have to have a line tattooed over that and have a new one with my new sobriety date lol.
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Old 01-11-2014, 03:48 PM
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Originally Posted by EndGameNYC View Post
If this is the case then, like Dee, I'm still baffled by the explanation. I'm a certified psychopharmacologist, but I'd never give advice to an anonymous stranger unless there were a good reason to do so. My only hope is that everything works out well for the OP.
What did you mean by anonymous stranger.
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Old 01-11-2014, 03:55 PM
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He meant that he didn't know me in the real world. Only in this blog I'm guessing. And he doesnt know my vitals/withdrawals.

It would be dumb to give medical advice without knowing individual situations. He was smart.
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Old 01-11-2014, 03:58 PM
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I am an RN so, I very well understand that concept. I think most everyone on this forum does.
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Old 01-11-2014, 04:26 PM
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I am confused by this so, lets go through this step by step.

I understand that you were sober, but relapsed.
I believe your Doctor told you you would have to go through detox again.
He prescribed you detox medicine but it is unavailable.
So he has advised to drink until it become available because you could have a fatal withdrawal.

I would get a second opinion.

I would take any notes the Doctor has given you regarding your visits to him and take them to your ER (Casualty Department), Emergency Treatment Centre.

I would tell them you wish to be admitted and to detox. They will have access to the medicine you need and have on-hand specialist emergency medical available should there be any complications.

I think rehab would be of some help after being discharged to avoid repeat occurrences.

When you become Sober, you need to actively make positive changes in your life. This involves changing a well establish routine completely, changing your diet, changing even the route home from work.

You need to redesign your working day and resting days to give yourself the best workable solution to prevent relapsing. This is what people refer to as a plan.

Without a plan, you are doing things that can cause a trigger to buying and drinking alcohol automatically and combined with the physical and mental addition, this is why we relapse.

I would check into ER first and while you have time on your hands work out a plan for your immediate future on what the best changes to make your life more enjoyable will be.

Good luck and keep posting and reading.
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Old 01-11-2014, 04:32 PM
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Autan not sure if you read all of that before but my last relapse occurred due to lack of plan. I have that plan now. Its bullet proof. It was set in motion yesterday.
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Old 01-11-2014, 04:54 PM
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I am really regretting posting this. Can we just agree that a sober Justin will check in tomorrow around noon and be sober for good?
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Old 01-13-2014, 06:18 AM
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I stayed at home from work today because I am such a mess emotionally. I drank yesterday and had a melt down. I'm just laying around this morning having panic attacks and wondering if I will still have my job as I feel I have missed a few too many days. We have employee reviews on wed and I'm scared they will make me break down in front of my bosses like a moron. I hate being so sensitive. I need to talk to someone today about getting help.
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Old 01-13-2014, 07:51 AM
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I would definitely look at getting help. Were you sober for a while before yesterday?
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Old 01-13-2014, 10:52 AM
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I stayed at home from work today because I am such a mess emotionally. I drank yesterday and had a melt down. I'm just laying around this morning having panic attacks and wondering if I will still have my job as I feel I have missed a few too many days. We have employee reviews on wed and I'm scared they will make me break down in front of my bosses like a moron. I hate being so sensitive. I need to talk to someone today about getting help.
Kayla, whats done is done, don't beat yourself up over it. Just commit to memory the feelings you are having right now. I agree that you should try to get help. Not only is it good for your recovery, it would also be good ammo to have at your review, should you need it.
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