Kris47

I'm down to two beers and the last few days I get kinda shaky and nervous. Know my body is wanting that drink. Right now, I'm really hyper and feeling out of sorts. I know this is nothing compared to what will happen when I am down to zero drinking. Just wanna get to Tuesday. I'm praying. Heart beat is getting faster, nauseaus, dizzy, my body is demanding that beer. I'll make it wait til I usually have it. 5 pm..............

Counting down the days.........

soberhawk

It is hard kris.

You feel better in your sober future, but you are right the start of recovery is hard.

It will get better

least

Just wait til you're sober and living the good sober life. It's worth the effort.

Ghostlight1

I would seek the advice of a doctor since you're expeianceing withdrawal symptoms. Better safe than sorry.
Best to you.

JaylaaKent

Well just remember - you never have to feel this way again.

IOAA2

It's very strongly advised to seek medical help/detox at this point.

BE WELL

ScottFromWI

I would agree with the others Kris, withdrawal is nothing to fool around with if you start getting serious symptoms. Please seek help.

Skye2

Kris, from what I've read, you've done amazingly well - how about letting your Doctor help you over that final hurdle?

Kris47

God, thank you all. I'm getting weepy again. I'm gonna do this. Sorry to be such a baby.

My doctor appt is on Tuesday. Don't know if he'll help as he is a new doctor in a new place.

I'll see how it goes and if I need to, will just go to the ER before then. Last detox was on my own 3 years ago.

This morning I am feeling okay, just kinda blue. Hopefully I can make it to my appt without too much concern.

Would that be right?

I think it's just the memories flooding back from last time I tried this.

Hang in there everyone.

Kris47

KateL

Go to the ER now if you're having a tough time. It;s what it's there for x

Skye2

ER sounds good to me - why suffer needlessly and you've been SO strong - no shame in getting a little help to get that final 'bump' out of the way

FreeOwl

good luck Kris...

we're here for you and we all want you to be sober.

You can do this.

Kris47

I'm okay for right now. Just the emotions coming out after all these years. I cry for happy, cry for sad. lol.

Never did a medical detox, ER, or got help doing this. Don't know what to expect. Also worried about the meds. Don't want to have to come down off of them too.

Kris

DoubleDragons

Tears are God's release valve. Let them flow! Pulling for you, Kris!!!

Kris47

Thank you!

alphaomega

Sweet Kris - you are NOT a baby. You are in the fight for your life. And you are afraid.
Let it out. And let go. Crying is very very healing on a deep level. Give yourself permission to love yourself through this. Nurture yourself and be gentle with you.

Also, realize that there are physiological and neurological reasons behind your flood of emotions. Couple that with letting go of a perceived "best friend".

It can feel like you are abandoning yourself, when in all reality you have decided to save your life.

Be well dear one.

XO AO

EverySngleNight

I did a medical detox for the first time at the beginning of December. I was VERY afraid because I didn't know what to expect. Please don't let your worry keep you away from that option! It was probably the best thing that's ever happened to me. It wasn't easy, but it was worth it.

You will only be on medication during your acute phase off withdrawal, and not long enough to become addicted and experience "coming down". These doctors know what they're doing. They have PHD's and specialities and whatnot! :-)

You can expect to be there for a few days, and to leave with follow up appointments/ treatment plan in hand- along with prescriptions if needed.

Everyone was very nice to me, not that I was the easiest patient! I was surprised by how INCREDIBLY helpful it was for me. If you have medical insurance and are able to go to detox- I would encourage it wholeheartedly.

Just wanted to give you more insight and hopefully alleviate any fears you may have. If you ever want any help to find a facility or anything- let me know. I'm happy to help if I'm able.

justinJustQuit

The only detox I've done is an outpatient at home detox with meds. I've taken benzos for three months off and on due to repeated detoxing and relapsing.

I've gotten like 13 days sober and I had NO ill effects of coming down from the benzos. I'm no doctor, but that was my experience.

EverySingleNight nailed it. They give you benzos to up-regulate GABA receptors which causes the alcohol withdrawal. Taking the benzos for a few days while your brain adjusts to the lack of evil booze, alleviates every withdrawal symptom for me. The weirdest part of taking them is being sober after 5:00 P.M. I didn't feel any side effects of benzos. I just felt normal.

I had abdominal pain from ulcers, digestive issues, and all that, but that's because I've torn up my digestive tract with the copious amount of alcohol it had to take in everyday and process.

And the people in detox centers know WAY more than I do. They have a job to sober you up. You won't be the first patient there crying and you wont be the last.

My last detox I sat and cried on my wife's shoulder and blogged on this site. There's no pride in any of it. You do what you can do to get sober. Everything else is secondary and doesn't mean squat in my opinion.

kflee

That is great tat you have made a start. It really would be wise to be monitored. The body can only handle so much shock at once. I went through similar. Take one step and one day at a time. Do not hide or express if and when you feel like the world is weighing down on you. Because it feels that way often and therapy and aide during detox helps so much.

Kris47

I CAN'T SAY IT TO ANYONE HERE ENOUGH, YOU GUYS ARE AWESOME ( NEVER USE THAT WORD) AND I WISH I COULD HUG EACH AND EVERYONE OF YOU.

only A FEW MORE DAYS TO GO.