Ten days later..
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Ten days later..
Morning all, After three months sober I drank for a few days over Christmas as I have posted here before. However I am pleased to say I am back on track and it it now ten days since I put down that last drink!
There's more. For the weeks leading up to my lapse I was very flat of mood, really very down and depressed. I put this down to my brain chemistry readjusting after years of alcohol abuse. In the end during the Christmas period I just said to hell with it and drank to relieve the mood I was in.
It worked for a couple of days too. However the writing was on the wall for me and I could see the destination well in advance - back to where I was three months earlier - and very quickly. I just felt horrible drinking all of a sudden.
I also came to the conclusion that my mood was at least in part a sort of 'sulk' that I was depriving myself of the substance I had come to rely on for so long.
Whatever the reason I picked myself up, got back to AA meetings and have now been sober for ten days. What is more my mood is much better and I feel pretty good on that score, so perhaps my theory is right about the 'sulk'.
Alcohol is cunning and baffling as they say. But I really do feel (cautiously!) that I am beginning to defeat it!
There's more. For the weeks leading up to my lapse I was very flat of mood, really very down and depressed. I put this down to my brain chemistry readjusting after years of alcohol abuse. In the end during the Christmas period I just said to hell with it and drank to relieve the mood I was in.
It worked for a couple of days too. However the writing was on the wall for me and I could see the destination well in advance - back to where I was three months earlier - and very quickly. I just felt horrible drinking all of a sudden.
I also came to the conclusion that my mood was at least in part a sort of 'sulk' that I was depriving myself of the substance I had come to rely on for so long.
Whatever the reason I picked myself up, got back to AA meetings and have now been sober for ten days. What is more my mood is much better and I feel pretty good on that score, so perhaps my theory is right about the 'sulk'.
Alcohol is cunning and baffling as they say. But I really do feel (cautiously!) that I am beginning to defeat it!
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Originally Posted by Mentium 
Morning all, After three months sober I drank for a few days over Christmas as I have posted here before. However I am pleased to say I am back on track and it it now ten days since I put down that last drink!
There's more. For the weeks leading up to my lapse I was very flat of mood, really very down and depressed. I put this down to my brain chemistry readjusting after years of alcohol abuse. In the end during the Christmas period I just said to hell with it and drank to relieve the mood I was in.
It worked for a couple of days too. However the writing was on the wall for me and I could see the destination well in advance - back to where I was three months earlier - and very quickly. I just felt horrible drinking all of a sudden.
I also came to the conclusion that my mood was at least in part a sort of 'sulk' that I was depriving myself of the substance I had come to rely on for so long.
Whatever the reason I picked myself up, got back to AA meetings and have now been sober for ten days. What is more my mood is much better and I feel pretty good on that score, so perhaps my theory is right about the 'sulk'.
Alcohol is cunning and baffling as they say. But I really do feel (cautiously!) that I am beginning to defeat it!
There's more. For the weeks leading up to my lapse I was very flat of mood, really very down and depressed. I put this down to my brain chemistry readjusting after years of alcohol abuse. In the end during the Christmas period I just said to hell with it and drank to relieve the mood I was in.
It worked for a couple of days too. However the writing was on the wall for me and I could see the destination well in advance - back to where I was three months earlier - and very quickly. I just felt horrible drinking all of a sudden.
I also came to the conclusion that my mood was at least in part a sort of 'sulk' that I was depriving myself of the substance I had come to rely on for so long.
Whatever the reason I picked myself up, got back to AA meetings and have now been sober for ten days. What is more my mood is much better and I feel pretty good on that score, so perhaps my theory is right about the 'sulk'.
Alcohol is cunning and baffling as they say. But I really do feel (cautiously!) that I am beginning to defeat it!
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