Ramsis

this is my 8th day and it feels great but a little depressing knowing that i have to start counting all over again!!!! everytime i use my brain is reset and all my addictive thinking is back again even if it was one line, that's the way it is hard but true!!!
i'm thinking of accupuncture, it might give me the push i need to pass the first 2 month drug free...
i'm having alot of mixed feelings, a part of me is tired and the other one wants to live, one part wants to use and the other one needs to be free,
I know we all have the biggest problem "addiction".... how hard it is and how painfull it could be,
my wife is depressed and i'm the reason!!
One problem i'm facing, i work as an insurance broker/consultant so i have alot of cash in my hands on a daily basis sometimes i get the silliest idea of taking that cash and going to the dealer but i keep on fighting and saying no to my addiction...


ohhh man i'm having the worst crave, i'm feeling really really bad
dunno what to do
hanging in front of my pc as much as i can
feeling really down, no meetings to attend no one to call, i'm affraid if i call my wife she'll panic, so what should i do?? i've been craving for the last 3 hours and i'm lost, still hanging...

BeerTooth

As far as fighting cravings, sometimes you have to make a decision on how tough you're going to be today.

Kris47

You'd be feeling worse if you weren't on Day 8. Remember how far you've come.

I'm 9 days behind you and it is killing me.

Keep on, keeping on. You're stronger than you think.

Skye2

Ramsis - have you joined the January class on here? It's all people giving up this month

Ramsis

How can i join the january class??

FreeOwl

here's a little update from Day 13;

It's pretty fantastic
There's a beautiful sunrise
Feeling fresh and conscious and aware and grateful is wonderful
AA today was inspiring
I am sore from the past few days' workouts - because I've had time and energy to really work out well

There's a lot of goodness here, in Day 13.... keep on going... it's worth it.

Skye2

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...rt-2-a-24.html

least

There's also the 24 hour sign up club. People post their intentions to stay clean and sober for the next 24 hours. Give it a try.

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...l-welcome.html

Ramsis

Guys I did it...... my crave passed....
It's true we have powers!!! And yes we can do it we just have to find the right key...
Thanks everyone for your support...

FreeOwl

Skye2

Fantastic news to wake up to I only signed in to see how you were doing and am SO thrilled