AussieAlco

I am so ******* depressed atm. Sorry if I spell anything wrong, I am on my galaxy s4.
I just visited the 24 hour medical center.
I scored a pack of Endone off the doc.
he knew why I wanted it but he didnt care.
I am going to down a bottle of spirits and smash this pack of endone.

I am sitting on the Esplanade on a park bench; bored and depressed.
I want an ambulance to take me to the hospital;the only place I feel safe. The only place I fit in: with other messed up people like me.
The government will help me. I cant do this alone...the government will give me education and pills if im in hospital.
I want to learn Spanish so I can speak to my sister.
If im locked up; they will help me learn it.

Dee74

Instead of downing endone and alcohol why not just take yourself to the ER and tell them whats going on?

someonelikeyou0

Whoa. Calm down. Please. Why don't you tell us what is going on?

AussieAlco

Thanks for your replies.
If you go to the ER and tell them youre 'depressed' theyll literally laugh at your and let you out the next day.

Thanks for asking whats going on.
I appreciate it.
Look; I have trouble executing an explanation for why I feel this way.
its an excellent question that my mum has asked me fkr years.

I guess the super main thing is that I feel so lonely
So damn lonely.
Everyone that is walking past me is a couple. I feel angry that I dont have that.
I spend every day staring at the wall.
I ******* hate who I am.
Look, at the end of the day, theres a lot more underlying social and mental issues than that, but at the moment I shall pin point it to pure lonliness.
Man was meant tp share his life with othet people.
Im so sad.
Lol..sorry for sob story...needed to vent yo

Rickh54

AUssie, sorry you are in the state you are. You do know the right and best strategy!
Put the bottle down the drain, toss the meds, and go home. Tough it out for a couple of days and then get to an AA meeting. At least you will be surrounded by caring understanding people.

Dee74

I was very lonely in my twenties - I spent a few Saturday nights on a park bench hating couples myself.

Things do get better.

The trouble with trying to force the issue is sometimes we go too far...it's just downright dangerous trying to attract peoples attention this way, man.

I was treated very well when I went to the ER, but that was several State Governments ago and I've never been to Cairns.

There are crisis lines to call:

DirectLine for 24-hour, 7-day counselling, information and referral on 1800 888 236.

Salvos Care Line
24 hr counselling- 1300 36 36 22


Lifeline
24 hr counselling. All Issues.
Phone: 13 11 14 (cost of local call from landline)

You're part of the community here. People do care what happens to you

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ImperfectlyMe

I'm sorry you are feeling this way. The nature of this beast is to ultimately isolate you from others and eventually yourself. You need help STAT. Even if the ER will hold you only 24 hours that's 24 less you won't be potentially poisoning yourself with that cocktail.

I hated myself for way to long for no damn good reason. It wasn't until I got and stayed sober I began to love myself.

Please take care of yourself, you deserve it!!!

Dee74

OK I gotta go...I'm an old man and I need my sleep LOL.

I think Ricks advice is great...you're in enough pain, dump the pills and booze, go home, go to bed, get some sleep and on Monday make a lot of noise about getting some help.

I know it's hard to see right now, but things will get better...I just had to get myself together first before I could get together with someone else.

I often despaired I would..but I did...once I ditched the drug and booze

make sure you're around, healthy and alert enough to catch the opportunities I know will come your way in the next few years and decades.

be gentle with yourself Aussie Alco

see ya tomorrow
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KateL

Look after yourself and get some help. Hugs xxx

Wastinglife

I certainly know that feeling of loneliness and dissatisfaction with life. Alcohol always filled that void temporarily but it is the reason I am alone to begin with since it has ruined too many relationships for me. There is no quick solution. Try to forget the booze/pills. You'll be much happy tomorrow if you do.

SnoozyQ

Please take this great advice Aussie .

So many of us here have felt just like you .

Keep posting hun and see you in the morning

We care , we really do xxx

AussieAlco

Thanks guys... luckily I threw it all up; passed out on the side of the highway for about an hour then went home... chilling in bed now.
Guess it goes to show what alcohol does to my inhibitions...what an idiot..
Thanks everyone

someonelikeyou0

Thanks for letting us know. I was actually concerned. Scary combo there.